if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Saturday, November 30, 2013

End of November 2013

In another few more minutes, it will be end of November... Well, u can also say is December... =)

November. It had been an exciting month. With me clocking the latest timing that I ever got home (12.30am) and earliest timing to reach the office (5.30am) since I started in my job... Another memorable or probably a significant event was to stand up for myself and my colleagues upon being backstabbed. But as usual, until things had gotten bad then I realize... But in the end, I was still outwit by a young girl who thinks she is a threat with her diploma that has leadership as compared to mine which doesn't. But she forgotten. I am not just a diploma student. And I chose not to take it. Since when will she be a threat. Tsk tsk. But then again. I was outwitted by her "intelligent" moves in being the innocent victim but yet behind me calling me always sitting, looking innocently and 见死不救 when I have absolutely no idea when she is talking about...

Anyway, I am tired talking about this over and over. Really..... Disgusted with the events and the people. Prolly upset with myself too . For not being able to resolve my thoughts...

Putting that aside, this year's birthday ain't that bad. Is always great to be able to celebrate with the love ones.nothing beat that.

Oh. Not forgetting to mention. Things that I feel regretful and prolly things I have reflected. Just on Thursday, I had a great fight with my mummy. I had never ever rebutted back like what I did on Thursday. Prolly cos of all the events that had happened. I just couldn't take it when my mummy has to continue.however then again, though I had not exactly settled down my thoughts. But I had definitely cool since Thursday. I had never cried so hard . So hard that I really really couldn't make myself sob. It felt like am in a drunken state. Though I dunno how a drunken state felt like. Dun want to know either....

So anyway, I started off with a blast right after aging by 1 year. I stood up for myself for being backstabbed but yet can't outwit a young girl which everyone just say is cos she ain't grown up yet (believe it?) I had an enormous fight with my mum which I had never really did before. I started to realize that I actually only have a few really good friends and some I guess I have lost them... I realized that I should not be celebrating birthday after 27 cos it shows that I am going to be 30 which is so uh oh cos I dun think my brain has worked up to that maturity and my life definitely could be better (though I dunno how so as of yet).

With all that, I shall turn it and may December be a great month . Cos December is call the Christmas month. The month I get broke with gifts but fulfilling to share the joy of giving.

Till then. Goodnight. ^^

Signing out... 1st December 2013; 00:10