if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Da Chang Jin

Yeah!! Finally finishing watching the now so hot korean series - Da Chang Jin.. woohoo.. haha.. my mum and i was so crazy about it that we decided to rent it instead of waiting for every series to be shown on the tv now at 10pm Channel U... yup.. but she had more time to watch thus, leaving me 16 disc to watch all by myself.. sobx.. :P

think is really a nice story.. the romance, fame, jealousy, the ego and stubborn mindset of the guys in the past and the different barriers that the main actress have to go through and how she cope it.. yup.. shed a few tears.. haha.. recommend everyone to watch.. besides, how often do u get to watch korean dramas that is film in ancient settings.. most korean dramas are like modern romance and the story line are predicted before the drama ends.. most of the time. yup.

so far.. nothing interesting in my life still.. is just work and work and work. yup.. maybe will update a lil on the KL trip when i am back..

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

To KL

yeap. is confirm that i will be going to KL for work next week. but it will only be 3 days.. hmm.. excited but wish it will come soon and go soon. cos because of this, there was so so much problems.. but glad that it was solved more or less.. :)

received NUS letter le.. didnt get in.. NIE as well.. dun ask me why.. haha.. but its okie.. sort of.. haha.. well.. though i dunno what is the next step.. but i suppose i can just smile through it yeah.. then there will be at least some hope.. not to be ego.. but if i am not strong there will be people that will be affected as well.. so no matter wat, treat things easy, think easy and smile through..

miss the times in school.. miss my friends too.. and can't stop thinking of play.. haha.. this weekend gonna go out with cs i suppose.. to eat nice nice food and maybe watch a movie? haha.. and not to forget.. i must curb the shopping mood.. haha.. because the Great Singapore Sale is coming... lalala... or izzit already here? :p

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Disappearing Act

yesterday was a very bad day. It really wasn't my day. i kept saying the wrong things. doing the wrong things. getting people upset when they are not. crashing people's hope. it was definitely a very bad day. felt sorry and now i dunno what else to say.. am i just like this yesterday? or am always like this?

feel like doing the disappearing act. run, hide and avoid.

Friday, May 19, 2006

Forbidden

Forbidden.. forbidden to go KL.. well.. the company want to sent me up to the KL office for a couple of days. but i am forbidden by my parents and cs... hmm.. we discussed about that long ago.. and i know he dun want me to go.. as for my parents, they say is too dangerous.. dangerous for me to go alone.. haix.. part of me want to. but the other part of me feels home sick already.. :(

actually after discussing with cs a couple of weeks ago, i sorta dun feel like going already. i also made up my mind not to. but just the boss asked me to go KL.. and is because of the lady colleague [project manager] assured the boss that she will be incharged of taking care of me.. but now.. my parents dun allow cos i am only 20 and i was asked to take the bus alone up to KL.. but there will people waiting for me at the bus stop.. hmm.. now i still have the home sick feeling.. will see how.. please do nt be angry...

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

sweet, fattening and silly

hmmm.. i dun really have much interesting stuffs to say.. which is like so sad? despite being real busy.. i feel that is just a routine.. conclusion, i think i dun really have a life.. =.=?? anyway, put that aside for now..

last thursday, me n cs went to watch "poseidon". i thought the show is quite nice. there is not much of a story.. but the action is great.. the tension, frantic survival and the precise decision making to survive.. i just felt the action is just simply enough. never mind the story line. what we wanna know is how they eventually got out of the sinking ship right? well.. after the movie, we had dinner in M.S. then ice-cream at haagen dazs.. yummy.. haha.. wanted to have fondue.. but we were just too full after our dinner (we even walk awhile to digest before heading for ice-cream) anyway, we had those normal ice-cream whereby we chose the ice-cream and the toppings. we also ordered a drink. i thought was quite special. hmmm.. but i can't remember the name of the drink. (forgetful lahz..) but i know on top of the drink i a layer of cream and a chocolate stick. the most special part is there's a tinge of beer inside the drink. so there's this alcoholic taste and coffee as well.. yup.. i thought it was a little bitter. but cs thinks its okie. hmmm... conclusion, everything was just simply wonderful.. keke.. *happy..

friday, vesak day. i went to the temple with my mum.. then by the time i reached home, i was like knock out. was suppose to help with the house work.. but yup. you guessed it. nothing was done. i went to sleep.. *faint... and to think i plan to go cs house to watch x-men.. duhz..... but anyway, i went out to meet my chinese childhood friends.. been some time since i met some of them.. so i thought the whole dinner was great. haha.. and the ice-cream was great.. oops.. had ice-cream consecutively within 2 days. :p well.. there was some discussion on guys have a certain ego. this is just their characteristics. it cannot be ignore.. but wun it be very hard for guys if they continue to stick with that certain ego of theirs? hmm.. maybe it seems easy to say, let it go.. but i really think at least they should give it a try.. and is singapore girls really hard to find as a partner? hmm.. anyway, i didnt really focus what they were saying. was listening bits and pieces.. so, better not say much.. =x

sunday was mother's day.. keke.. i pull myself out of the bed so as to go down to the market to buy breakfast and flowers for my mum.. i think i must be real stupid.. i didnt know that people usually give carnations on mother's day.. i thought it will be roses.. so i went home and exclaimed to my mum.. "mum, it seems that V-day more impt than mother's day. cos the cost of the roses is still the same price.. no incremement..." haha.. aren't i silly? :p anyway, went to the bookshop in the noon.. then cs met me after work.. so i "forced" him to help me ask whether there was "da chang jin - part 3" and the uncle said no. i was like =( reason why i didnt wanna go in myself was.. i've been going in almost everyday to check.. keke.. at least i just went in on a sat. thus felt a little paiseh to go back and check the very next day.. haha.. but anyway, me n my bro treat my mum dinner.. and my brother was so sweet.. *giggle.. he bought flowers.. (not roses. he bought tulips and carnations) and a card.. which have the word "birthday" wahaha.. cos the card cannot be opened.. and he didn't know is a birthday card.. haha.. :p but the sweetest thing is the card has a recorder and he recorded his msg inside.. think my mum almost cry when she heard his msg.. keke.. ok.. on the way back, i went to the vcd shop again. yup. never give up.. haha.. anyway, to my surprise, there was "da cha jin" wahahha... the uncle see me... he just simply smile.. i think he recognise me... haha.. my mum say the uncle must be thinking.. "what's wrong with this gal" haha.. anyway, this is the silly me. haha..

Thursday, May 11, 2006

sucky day

today is a sucky day. it was suppose to be a wonderful day. i was suppose to go out.. have fun and relax. but what. i ended up in the office. stupid stupid stupid. the boss.. dun even reply. i have half the mind to ignore him and just go. besides, i am entitled by leave. dun even care whether i will be marked by him. anyway, i will never change my mind that he is a bad boss.. overworked. under paid. stupid stupid stupid.. haix... *cry...

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

bored

I am currently now in my new office. is at somerset. small.cozy [cos i dun have to walk much to reach for my stuff]. squeezy [yucks!] so far so good.. just that i think is a lil ulu.. but that gives me the chance to go home in time. :) anyway, rather bored.. the internet wasn't up till yesterday evening. so felt quite stranded. but once the internet was up, there was this sudden joy. yeah!!

currently a lil bored. breakfast on my left. staring at me. stomach growling but dun even feel like picking the bread up to bite. :/ many stuffs waiting to be done... but is so slow connecting to the KL side.. so i am waiting.. have to confess that i am actually not in the mood for anything. no idea why. maybe too many things to settle. too many things to think. too many things to decide. is tiring.. but i brought it on myself. so no blaming on others.. for now, the motto is: tahan n continue. :p

well..been quite lost touch with my friends.. :( many many sorries.. really been busy.. maybe i shall put in even more effort to catch up with everyone.. yeah.. ok.. i suppose i shall start on sumthing now.. at least get started better than nothing right? haha.. ciao.