if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Last sunday. my most happiest and memorable day.. i wish everyday was like that day.

Sunday, November 18, 2007

birthday!! =)))

p.s: there is some content of mushiness. please bear with it. =p

today is my birthday!! yippie!! things went well after all.. =) (in response to my previous entry)

how did i spend today?

usually i will spend the actual day with my family. like having dinner, cutting the cake etc. this year is rather the same. =) spend the morning rather daze.. went out with my mummy in the afternoon.. i went to collect my contact lenses while she went to meet a client (erm.. some xuan1 chuan2: anybody wanna buy savings policy etc.. can find my mummy!! =p) at yishun. went to amk hub after that and the crowd was like... so terrible.. so so many people.. just walking can get one frustrated especially when it was a rainy day and everyone were like trying to prevent getting wet. but the afternoon went well. cos i seldom get to accompany my mummy out and usually if we both goes out, we will end up fighting (e.g: she will say i have too old fashion taste etc. my immediate reaction: black face =p)

had dinner with my family in the evening. it was a get ready to be fatter and bloated dinner. haha.. ordered quite a number of dishes. including of some tim sum stuffs. just can't resist ordering side dishes!! greedy me. haha.. it was daddy's treat. did not managed to take a family photo.. =( but at least i managed to get my brother to take a photo with me before he book in.. hehe.. better than nothing right? =)

my day ended with a smile when cs came over to my house after dinner. to help me celebrate!! *happy!! haha.. actually i kinda hinted and ask him whether he would be coming over.. haha.. naughty me. but still... his effort to come over with my favourite cake from coffee bean and white chocolate dream ice blended was totally touching.. *felt so loved and doted on* hehe.. the whole celebration was really sweet and i am really touched and happy.. even if yesterday was just like any saturday. even if there wasn't a proper cake and candle. i still felt very much contented. cos of you. thank you!! *hugx..

did i mentioned that we managed to take a picture yesterday? haha.. yup. so happy. though i hope can take a neoprint cos the last time we took was like a year plus ago. but nvm. still have the chance yeah? hehe.. happy happy!! hope all the dreams i wished will come true orh. =)

lastly, thank you to everyone who were willing to part with their 5 cents (haha.. kidding) wishing me happy birthday as well as my uni classmates who helped me celebrated my birthday in such a surprising manner, grace who never failed to take time off to meet me and catch up with me. my family (mummy, daddy, brother) for letting me feel the family warmth on this very day. lastly, cs. thank you for making my birthday end so happily and that i have you to celebrate with me once again. i am really really a lucky girl. thank you all for making this day so special.. *gratefulness...... sobx with happiness.... =')

Saturday, November 17, 2007

sick

today is the 17th. the inital plan was to go out with cs to celebrate my birthday tml. got permission to go home slightly later. but... due to the terrible flu that i caught on thu and despite sleeping the whole afternoon on friday, i am still not recovered. =( wonder what is today's plan...

hmm.. i shall push all the unhappy stuffs aside for now and update on the past few days. had class on thu.. kept sneezing cos of the flu. it was really terrible. my nose kept "running".. used up lots of tissue and even felt like my nose is peeling off. met grace in the evening for dinner at coffee club. it was her treat. for my birthday. hehe.. walk about abit and stone at coffee bean. =)

spend the whole of my friday sleeping. hoping to recover by today.. cos i am looking forward to going out with cs.. =)) he said he will take photos with me and i think he is getting a small little cake or something.. haha.. thus, i was desperately drinking water so as to recover..

disappointed at night. i was still not feeling quite well. guessed i slept too much in the noon thus i could not fall asleep at night. finally when i managed to fall asleep, the sick feeling came back again in the middle of the night. once again, i am stuck not able to sleep until 6am in the morning.. =(

hmm.. just hang up the phone. suddenly got this sad feeling that this year birthday not gonna be a very very happy one afterall.. and falling sick just make it worst. but still, always be thankful as everything might turn out well. we never know.. =)

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

special day!! =))

usually i will blog on things that are sad. but today i am going to make it different!! =))

today is a very special day. as well as a very very happy day! though the day started off with a raining morning. but still, it did not dampen my mood at all! why? because my daddy send me to school despite having to wake up so early when the weather was so so nice to tug under the blanket and Zzzz.. felt so doted!! haha..

was not able to concentrate on this morning lesson and i reckon my teacher was a lil frustrated.. =( but is because i am just too excited with the event after lesson!! =p well... i know, this is not a really good excuse.. but................. just this time..... hee..

lesson ended slightly earlier as most people were starting to get restless. thus, that is when my pre birthday celebration. well, i must be honest that i was indeed rather frustrated as to where to eat because i dun really like to make decisions. thus, was a lil =.="" after class. despite being all excited about it in the morning. anyway, finally decided the place to have lunch with my uni friends, jocelyn, diana, amber, daphne, ai ni and kaiting. did not expect much of a celebration. thought it was only just a lunch celebration BUT was surprised by them when they suddenly produced a cake from no where. haha.. they were really good at being hush hush. really no signs of them getting a cake. or maybe i was not oberservant.. =p that was the first surprise. =) ooh!! nearly forgotten to comment that the cake was so cute. it was small but yet just right for all 7 of us!! haha..

after lunch, me, jocelyn, diana and amber went to bugis and then city hall. apparently, amber wanted to look at birkenstock sandles. thus, we went to city hall to browse the sandles. here is where the second surprise came about... we were at mango when jocelyn suddenly exclaimed that she lost her phone. at that point i can understand how she felt as i lost my phone just recently. thus, she started to go to places she had been and i followed her not knowing what to do but yet frantic as well. i kept thinking that amber and diana had something to do with it because both of them kept smiling.. in the end we ended up back at the birkenstock shop and i saw jocelyn talking to the salesperson and then sitting at the couch with her hands covering her face.. i really did not know what to say or do.. didn't know if i should call her phone just in case the person who took her phone switched it off. then amber suddenly pulled me into the shop and ask me to console her. while i was half kneeling infront of her, the shopkeeper suddenly took my hand and passed me a paperbag containing a box. at that point i still do not know what it meant. all i thought of was why jocelyn lost a phone and she gain a sandle.. haha. i just concentrating on what to say to console her!! when she finally lifted up her face and said that she is feeling so sad that no tears is coming out then i realise i was tricked!! haha.. but must comment that she got the potential of a scriptwriter as the whole scene was "written" by her. diana kinda sympathesized with me though. she told me that she wanted to tell me the plan when she saw me looking fratic and i think i almost teared for jocelyn. haha.. but nevertheless.. it was really really really great surprise. thank you!!!!

the next thing that i am happy about besides my daddy fetching me to school and all the surprises my uni friends gave was meeting cs for dinner. haha.. he asked me out for dinner.. yeah!! i think he seldom does cos he had been really busy with work and studies, i am also busy as well. so.... happy!!! =) we met 2 other friends, rayson and qiuling and went to have botak jones near braddell. the portion was really big and i could not finish my and cs gotta help me with it and in the end he became real bloated. haha.. sorrieee....

today really ended real well for me. thus it really is a special day.. never been so happy since such a long time.. thank you to all!! =)

Monday, November 05, 2007

back with more =( things

Been sometime since i last blog. was really busy the last few weeks of september as well as october. getting ready for assignments, presentation and exams.

Just started class last week after a short one week holiday. the one week holiday ended well despite the rough times during the beginning of the holiday. Am grateful for the past few weeks of blissfulness + happiness.. =) (but i screwed it up recently.. sigh..)

did something silly again. yeah. is a once again. though many say i think alot. but yet the contradicting part is why all the mistakes i do shows that i didn't think about it beforehand. sometimes i think i am either nt aware of what is happening (inexperience) or i am just purely... i dunno what to describe.

that day, one of the tutor said that the special trait i had is actually nt very suitable in the line of my course. was rather upset. is the 2nd person who said that. i started to wonder is my character an advantage or is it really more of a disadvantage in this real world. maybe the solution is balancing the trait. maybe i haven't learn how to manage my life. thus, is kind of in a turmoil and i am affecting the people around me.

well.. i am still learning. i dunno how long anyone could wait for me to learn. i always just wish for a chance to succeed and to show that i am learning and i had change. i will still keep trying and fight for a chance. because the last thing i want is to regret.

maybe what happened on sunday might sounds like excuses. but i am one that do not planned. especially if i know it will lead to a bad ending. i am so honest and truthful that people tend to worry for me. hmm.. dunno what i talking already. in conclusion, i do not have concrete explanation as to why i forgotten. but i will not forget about it ever again..