everything was fine this morning. i went to work. boss was nice that she even brought curry vegetable for me to let me eat. but too bad the left side of my mouth is aching. i have both an ulcer [which is really really big. think is 2 ulcer together. making it into 1..] and i think my wisdom tooth is also growing. and both the ulcer and the tooth are on the left. side by side. anywayz, back to topic. everything was fine until just a few minutes ago..
i hate it when she do things behind others back. alwayz seems so sneaky. and i will alwayz feel so scared for her. worried that she might be caught and things will turn out even much more worst than now. yeahz. maybe the things she do is for everyone's benefit. but i rather her not to do such things and just let the worst happen. i aint sure will i regret wat i am saying right now. but i know at least i aint regretting right now. things are definetely not looking good. and soon, 2005 will end. we are almost reaching june. time is short.. we really dun have much time. i do feel sad for her and sympathise her. but i really dunno wat to do and cant do anything. damn. tat's all. dun feel like saying anything. tired to. just wanna find a punchbag.. and it seems my blog is the most suitable one...

did a rather silly thing yesterday. went for lunch with my mummy at yishun. the coffeeshops near the northpoint there... yeahz. and it was raining since i woke up. so is kinda wet everywhere. after having lunch, i went to ryan's house. because his house was like 600 series which is near khatib but i was like in yishun and i had already started walking. i ended up ard blk 300 series. started to ask my way around and there was this guy trying to lock his car but i guess there was some prob with the sensor. but anywayz, i went up to ask. and he pointed to another direction. only then did i realise tat all along i was in the wrong direction... duhz... anywayz, to the point.... after telling me the direction, he say that he could give me a lift. so in the end i sat his car and he drove me to ryan's place. was kinda dangerous. but haiz. dunno wat was i thinking. anywayz, i know he is aint dangerous or watsoever de. yahz. arghz. tired le. dun wanna write le. nitez.. *yawnz.

today is mother's day. went to work in the morning and came home in the afternoon... [lame...] anywayz, wanted to treat my mum a good dinner but because she is eating vegetarian today therefore we have to postpone. furthermore, i kept thinking that mother's day will be next sunday. so i did not get any gifts. but i will definately get her sumthing this week if i got the chance to go shopping. anywayz, bought dinner back because it was kinda late when my bro reach home and i am lazy to go out for dinner because there will be so many people in the streets and all the resturants will be fully booked. so in the end i went to get dinner and a cake. but all 3 of us were too tired and too full to eat the cake so we decided to leave it for tml's breakfast. just wanna say "Sorry Mummy, didnt gave ya a wonderful mother's day. but still hope u enjoyed it. =) "
everything seems alright until a friend of mine keep asking me how are both of us. i know all of them are concern. but once they mention the prob, i felt frustrated. i "hao bu rong yi" try to tell myself not to avoid and that i have finally convince myself to just carry on with things and only settle the prob when it happens and not to think too much like wat will happen or wat are the problems that will occur and here comes them mentioning it. arghz! haiz. maybe i had been avoiding the matter since chalet that time. but on the other hand convincing myself that i could actually not think so much. now i am beginning to think abt it. to think abt which way to approach him so as not to let him be hurt or to minimise the amount of hurt he might face. how i wish he never met me. he was unlucky to. i know it is wrong... but i think i am slowly beginning to be careful once again. the old me has return once again. i am sorry.

yoz yoz... finally back here to blog. wahahhaz. i am lazy u see.. haha. 2 weeks has pass since the last day of fypj. really enjoyed this 2 weeks. went to my class chalet [DBI0212] on 24th Apr - 26thApr. it was fun and exciting. cs came with us to the chalet too. now the whole class know who he is. haha. he is really popular. went to escape theme park but didnt get to ride quite a no of rides because i went there after work. but nevertheless, it was fun. haha. but 1 thing that saddens me is. a few of us went to play the car ride [Go-Kart] i think and i was actually the first to drive and i reach the ending point 2nd last. omg. nearly fainted. andy, kaiyi they all still can smile at me. arghz!!! haha. but it was really fun. that was the first day. 2nd day we went to NTUC to grab some items for our bbq at night. though it was kinda last min, but shopping ard together with friends is cool. haha. oh. and saw sharon and her bf [dunno what is his name..] when we were getting the bbq items at White Sands. the bbq at night can say was a success despite the last minute preparations. there aint much left over. the cleaning was also quite ok. better then the very first time. i remembered coz no one wanna help with the cleaning then


just came back from Genting yesterday afternoon. went to genting with my classmates [celeste, peifeng, lihui, shuching, kaiyi, kevin, sudono, yi xiu, kimpoh, ryan and yong qiang.] left on monday night ard 10 plus 11 [2nd may] and came back on the [5th may]. reach genting by bus at 4 am in the morning. everyone was like still half awake. set at Starbucks till morning. then went for lunch at pizza factory. though everyone seems kinda seperated. but we still manage to take a few grp photos. hmmmz.. did we? haha. gotta check. had "ba ku tek" for dinner then after went to shoot some arrows at the archery booth. haha. all the arrows i shot are like hanging halfway as if it is gonna drop soon. haha. dun see me so "big" size, i am actually very weak. Ben alwayz say so. haha.. after hanging at the archery corner until the personnels actually "chase" us away calling us to come back the next day instead because they are closing. we went to a so called pub [seriously, i dunno wat izzit call. just follow] and call a couple of drinks before heading back to our rooms. everyone of them said that i was drunk. but i think i was ok. just that my face was red and hot. but! i am still rather clear. haha. only had a cup of bacardi [think is cola flavour] and drank a lil of everyone's drink. [vodka, beer...]
went to the outdoor theme park on wednesday. set a number of daring rides like the space shot. the one tat goes up vertically to a few stories then drop ya down. and rollercoaster, spinner [sit on the chair and they will spin ya round and round], flying coaster [have to lie down and there is 360 degrees turn etc..] etc... the worst ride was the space adventure. it was totally... haiz. lame. dun sit tat ride ok. haha. spent quite an amount on food and gifts. took lotsa pictures too.. haha. but i could not upload to my compute because my cd-rom is spoil and i have to install the program first b4 i can start uploading the pictures...
good things never last.. soon it was the last day of the trip. though it was kinda sad that we are leaving so soon. but is ok. look at the bright side. is not as if we are not gonna meet or wat right? haha. the bus ride back was terrible. kevin and yong qiang kinda felt unwell. but i felt quite ok though i was sitting at the last row. felt that the whole bus ride is like a roller coaster. haha. yong qiang says that i look like i was listening to some "yao tou" song because i was bumping up and down in my chair all the time and kaiyi was kinda afraid that my head will fall off coz my head was "bumping" to the left and right when i was sleeping. haha. so "mei you yi tai". not to mention i actually got tea egg [cha ye dan] sauce all over my pants!! terrible!! arghz. haha. went to have dinner at amk mos burger together with peifeng, ryan, shu ching and sudono.
well, basically that's how i spent this whole week. haha. and is time to look for a job soon. but i am still in a holiday mood.. haha. lalala. see ya guys again.. ^.^

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