if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

olympics and more olympics

okay. i had been rather away lately. my msn inbox is almost bursting because i haven't been checking my mails for almost a week or so.. yup. lazy. remembered the last time i was lazy to on my computer was during my attachment whereby i had to look at the computer screen 5 days a week and 8 hours a day. so i just simply left my computer to rot during those months because i simply~~~~ do not want to on the computer when i was home. this time round it is similar. the difference is. this time, i am lazy.

briefly mention what i was doing the past week/s before i really get screamed by my mummy for not helping her with her work. troubleshooting/repairing my mummy's laptop, busy watching Olympics!! my favorite since i was sec school.. think was gymnastics, diving, basketball, volleyball, track & field - running, swimming and badminton. in fact most of it except marathon. thus i am pratically glued everyday and every night.. =)

i was also busy with my theses. to be honest, not as busy as watching olympics. haha.. =p ain't sure if me and daphne will make it for the sept ethics proposal hand in. but we will definitely try. in fact, ai ni wants us to do it by hook or by crook i suppose. hmm.. i have this feeling that she ain't so please with us. maybe unhappy or disappointed. sorry ai ni. =(

anyway, gotta go. think i will come back to update later if i had the time. before that... bball bronze, silver and gold placing. woohoo!! no way my mummy going to stop me watching it!!

ciao~

signing out... 12.44pm

Sunday, August 17, 2008

happy part 2

yes indeed i am happy, grateful to have what i have now.

but men/women are greedy.

i wish i do not have to do my theses, assignment or any test..

then i will be happier.. =D

well.. on second thoughts.. maybe if i have enough money. then i do not have to work for money but for interest. i might be happy too.. haha.

signing out... 12.18pm

Sunday, August 10, 2008

reason

i realised.

the reason that i am happy is because of what i have at this moment.

thank you.

signing out... 5.09pm

Saturday, August 09, 2008

Today is national day. =) a rare break from the usual saturday whereby i do not have to work... hee. thus, i decided to stay home in the day to accompany my mum and out in the night..

watched the opening of olympics yesterday. but didn't managed to catch the lightening of the torch. gee.. it was all a misunderstanding. i fell asleep while seeing the entrance of each country and my mum got quite bored so she decided to switch the channel a lil while waiting. but alas. she switched back to the wrong channel and i was wondering why the teams from each country disappeared so fast and was replaced by the performers in beijing.. i supposed i was still half awake then to realise that we might be on the wrong channel.. finally when i realised it........... we managed to see that picture of the lighted torch!! =.= after all the waiting.. i was looking forward to seeing it and who is going to light it!!!! but...

well.. and so.. that's -THE END-

this morning i went out to run some errands and i realized it is time to be even stronger than before. i will not fall. be it how tough life is going to be from now on. because it is my duty.

我一定会/要加油! =D

signing out... 12.50pm

Thursday, August 07, 2008

i want to be happy.. ^_^

everyone is leading life well. it seems like it.

actually life can be quite fun.

it used to be fun a few years back. think that was because we were all young then. can play a fool. relax, enjoy.. study hard but play doubly hard too.. haha.. those were the days. memories.

now that a couple of years had pass.. everyone seems to lead a different life. a life filled with more responsibility. responsibility of one's own action and future. in couple with worries and stress in other areas. financial, family etc.. i suppose this is known as maturing.

was talking to my secondary school mates. realized the number of years that had flew by. once a quiet person with only "yes, no, ok" for an answer. now, there are at least slightly more words to form a sentence. =) haha.. events happening the past few years did train you well.

well.. coming back to my title..

seeing everyone leading on well, made me feel like doing the same.

enjoy my life to the fullest and be happy.

just like before.

not that i ain't contented now. but you never know when something might happen. maybe tml? haha.. okay. was kidding.

just being greedy. =p

suddenly this seems to be my wish.

will i attain it?

signing out... 11.58pm

Sunday, August 03, 2008

essay = headache + demoralised

essays everytime leaves me demoralised. because i have no idea how to go about it.

i've got an essay to hand in this week but till today i have yet get any ideas on how to go about it. is not like i haven't been thinking about it.

well.. i just do not have the brains as to know what topic is easy to do and what topic is do-able.

help help help!!

signing out... 12.46pm

Friday, August 01, 2008

school had been rather busy. just finish our first presentation within less than a month and we already had a presentation! i suppose this is the expectation of 4th year.

though school had been rather busy. for most, but not me. at least not really. because engine is still rather cold. well.. come to think of it, school had been busy because i am feeling rather lost during lessons and there seems to be never ending catching up to do.

work had been just as busy as well. is starting to eat up my time. especially my leisure time. and i could not decide which to give up. in fact, if i am more discipline, i will be able to manage and juggle things on hand. any time management manager? haha. kidding. well.. no worries (now). i will survive.

ever since i was in sec school, i always wanted to go overseas. at least for a period of time. to experience the life, the culture, the season. maybe i read too many boarding school books when i was a little kid. thus, i had dreams of going to some boarding school. or at least study and stay in some hostel or rented apartment. experience a different kind of life. =)

looking at the pictures we took at the supreme court i realised how much i had aged. sad. indeed, i can't turn back the time. i can't turn back the time i had in secondary school, in poly and after poly. the thing that sadden me most is i can't find my goal. i used to had strong goals and it got lost someway. BUT. it doesn't matter. it means i had grown up and i will be having a different goals as compared to years back. =) i dun deny i do not have a specific and strong goal at the moment. not one that truly comes from the heart only those that seems like - no choice, that's your goal. for school, it felt like, no choice. your duty to do well. for work, no choice, for the cash (thinking back what a jnr used to say, work is for money) and it is actually quite tiring and non-motivational. no wonder they say money is not exactly a good motivational factor in fact it contributes to the dissatisfaction in working for individuals. anyway, no worries. not pessimistic about it. in fact, i am thinking, my brain is working. =)

lastly, before ending the entry.. some good news to share. one of my student - Bernice, scored the highest in class for her english test. though she attribute it to me, saying i helped her improved in her grammer etc, i truly do not think i contribute anything much cos i am not good myself =), besides.. i only taught her for a month. so Bernice, it was all your effort. congrats to you ^_^ jiayou!!

to all the nerds, non-nerds, upcoming nerds, friends and gals, strive hard in your goals, stay happy, positive and thanks for always being there for me in good and bad times. lots of thanks to jocelyn and daphne for that day and every other days too. *hugx*

p.s: celeste, please do do do contact me when you are back! i wanna have lunch with you.. after next wednesday's essay okie..

oh ya oh ya!! very very last sentence. i bought my "sky of love" cd!!!! ^-^v

signing out... 11.47pm