if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

graduated.

yup. i have finally graduate. no longer studying (at the moment).

friends always asked me the same questions. are you still studying. then the next comment would be. wah. u had been studying for quite long~~

well, actually, time passes by really really fast. 3 years ago. i was 21. had my birthday party at east coast and had all my friends with me to celebrate the big day. 3 years later. i thought of holding another party for friends whom i havent met for a long long time. so is like a birthday cum gathering party. but. i might have to think about it again. cos the expenses can be quite great.

back to the topic..

i had finally graduated. aint sure why. but the feelings ain't that elated or super super happy. just feeling pretty normal. look pretty and take a few nice graduation photos with friends as well. grace came on that day. my only friend who came. grace - who had always been my elder sister since secondary school. super happy and touched to see her. as it was quite inaccessible to go shangri-la without driving. *hugx*

photos taken during the graduation would be posted up some time later. tml, me and the gals plus - melissa, lousia, and yy will be going to marina barrage once again to take some photos before returning the regalia. so, till then~

let's talk about today.

had been feeling a lil moody lately. the first thot some had might be cos i am lost after graduation. but that's not truly what it is. in fact, had been feeling like this for quite some time. before graduation.

today i went to teach at the kindergarten after that, tuition with bernice. once again, bernice did not finish her homework. feeling a little worried and not wanting to tell her mother for fear she will be scolded and she will start to hate me.. however, things can't go on. if she dun do her homework, i wun know what she dunno. so in the end i feedback to her mum. and the very next moment, i felt upset.

dd came over today. once again, i felt a sense of negativeness.

my procrastination. *angry*

however, felt a lil better after watching the fann wong and christopher lee's wedding. a sense of warmth. followed by the last episode of the HK drama - 溏心风暴. the ending was sad and sweet. living in the world of imagination. i felt like working hard and not procrastinate anymore.

think i will stop here. the weather is super hot recently. had trouble sleeping. zzz..

signing out... 12.07am

Thursday, September 24, 2009

just a quick entry. cos i am really tired..

today. woke up at ard 5plus 6am once again for an event work. this time, at Grand Hyatt. it was quite alright only that i got sleepy halfway through as the aircon was blowing really strong making the atmosphere sleepy. oh ya, lucky i left house early. else i would be stuck in the rain. cos, shortly after i reached the hotel, it started pouring.. thank goodness.. =)

after the event, which ended later then i expected, i ran some errands and went home to change to a new set of clothes and out to meet Jocelyn to run more errands in town as well as to get a blouse for this saturday graduation..

the day ended whereby we (classmates from uni) had international buffet dinner at Pan Pacific hotel. thank you to kt.. =)

that's all for today.

oh... before i end.. yesterday and today were both a happy day. not thinking much of anything. but just feeling peace. yesterday, i received more teacher's day gift, though it was almost over, from the kindergarten students. ironically, the gifts that i received were mostly from other classes, meaning, not my form class. in particular, there was this one boy that has a very very notti and mischievous look on his face, like he gonna be rebellious next time (looks like), gave me a gift. nvr thot him in sec 1 before. only thot him for one semester. so surprise to received his card (which was well made for a kindergarten student) and his gift.

okay. that's really all for today..

graduation: less than 1 day time. feeling: unsettled.

signing out... 12.08am

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

da vinci, science centre and marina barrage

some photos taken during august. went to the da vinci exhibition at science centre. however, photos was not allowed to be taken in the exhibition. so, the 3 of us - Jocelyn, Daphne, and me ^_^ only took photos at the science centre. it felt like back to primary school excursion trip. =p

science centre

wonderland~

land of robots

last picture before leaving =)

Jocelyn, Kai Ting and me, also went to marina barraige. was my first time. though we waited at the wrong bus stop =.= but, it was really a worthy trip. it was really beautiful. but the sun set too fast.. didn't get to take better photos. =/ there were many couples taking their wedding photos over there. and a group of funny teenagers taking funny funny pose (e.g, trying to balance themselves on the head, and feet still on the ground).

shall stop here now, next class is coming in~

tata.. countdown to graduation: 3 days. mood: average.

signing out... 12.45pm

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

graduation..

the weather today is: cooling.

yup. is cooling that i dun even need to switch on the fan to sleep.

feeling so sleepy. however, i must try to do some work before sleeping. cos i procrastinated way too much. which i really hate it.

graduation is coming soon. this saturday - 26th september.

didn't really tell my friends neither did i really asked. maybe is cos i ain't excited about it (for wat reasons, i dunno~) or maybe i feel, no one might wanna come..

happiness. should be from the heart. even how tired one is, as long as one is truly happy, the person will definitely look pretty. feel it. with your heart.

dun be mistaken..

i ain't unhappy. just not cheerful. not as cheerful as last time.

however, i am still doing fine. *smile* yeap! am still smiling..

really hope graduation will be fun. it is gonna be this saturday at shangri-la till ard 4.30pm..

gotta iron my clothes for tml's work at kindergarten.

tata~ nite nite..

signing out... 11.39pm

Thursday, September 17, 2009

cute panda clips

some cute pandas clips~

last.. (not panda). but is super cute~

signing out... 11.05pm

space space space

dunno why..

but today i felt sad.

the alarm clock rang at 5.40am singapore time.

got up after i heard the national anthem being played on the radio. to perk my mood up for today's 7am job, i finished listening to 当你想着我 by 李心洁 and 品冠 and went to shower.

the feeling of waking up very early in the morning wasn't that bad. it felt like i was back in secondary school. in fact, i was quite surprised by the fact that many was already up at this time and preparing for either school or work.

if i can, i will try to sleep and wake up super early. from when shld i start. maybe next week..

suddenly dunno wat to say.

think i will just stop here for now..

signing out... 10.45pm

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

finally finished a part of today's task.. one small part..

today i went for a hair cut with melissa. then after we went back to amk hub for tea and cakes before heading home. it feels so good to meet up with good friends. even if it is just a short while =)

on the way home, the sky started to turn darker and darker. then, there was the smell of the rain. somehow, the rain smelled quite nice today. plus, the weather was really cooling..

however, my stomach started to act up. feeling queasy once again. so i skipped dinner.. now, i ain't sure whether it is cos i am hungry or that my stomach is telling me i ain't well again..

lately, there seems to be lots of unhappiness floating around and i do wish they can be resolved. but i know not everything can be resolved that easily.. so, i just have to look at it positively... however, i still feel that i am having an illusion. of myself. some illusion that through my sixth sense, i feel i am quite right. am losing confident.. but, i suppose i will call up this friend one day to confirm it again.

for now, i should really rest for tml's work.. reporting time: 7am. sigh. i am worried i can't wake up in time..

that's all for now..

goodnight...

signing out... 10.50pm

recovered - first day @ kindergarten

today is not a bad day. so far. ^_^ because i am recovered! haha.. and my appetite is back~~ hmm.. *thinking* fat i am gonna be..

now at the kindergarten. first day of school...

maybe recently i had been watching too much cardcaptor sakura (anime that i like lots during sec 4? poly? anywayz.........), so somehow, i felt i am younger! haha.. more patience with the notti ones too......... =p

but the sad side of today is.........

i am SUPER TIRED~~~~~

so long since i woke up so early.. ='(

signing out... 12.30pm

Monday, September 14, 2009

fifth day - sick

today is the fifth day i am sick..

but luckily, i am feeling better and am starting to have some appetite for - chocolate. keke..

yesterday was a long night. mummy says i might be having a mild food poisoning. but jocelyn says i am having some gastro something..

well, watever it is. i had lost 1 kg of weight in just 4 days.. which i suppose it is water. =p

daddy, mummy and brother are the best these days. especially my brother! hee.. he had been my serving me water and medicine every night after his self study at 11.30pm.. and morning, whenever i am half asleep, he will wake me up and ask me whether i need water or want to have lunch.. awww... totally touched! *blush @^.^@

there's so many things i need to start doing after i am well.. else i will be in trouble~~

so...

hope i get well soon..

but in the meantime....

i shall enjoy myself doing things i wanna do~ keke..

signing out... 2.51pm

Saturday, September 12, 2009

sick~ ='(

sigh.

it is the third day since i am sick..

it started on thursday night after the last kickboxing lesson [not able to join the next semester cos of some reason. sad ='( ] anywayz, went home not feeling hungry. skipped dinner and had a very terrible night. tossing and turning.

next morning, friday, woke up with a queasy stomach and headache.. though i went for the kindergarten training, however, i postponed tuition. sigh..

today, applied for sick leave at kumon, was not able to go to my aunt's place for an event and lastly, not able to go for my poly's class gathering. super sad~

to make it worst, my stomach ain't getting any better.. ='(

hope i get well by tml. else tuition gonna be a torture~~

signing out... 11.54pm