if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Friday, November 17, 2006

surprise surprise

this morning when i woke up, i got a surprise from my very good fren who is now in Aust... Melissa.. lying on my study desk was an envelope package. inside was a very cute and sweet lil porcelain container (think it is porcelain) which looks a lil antique cos of the pale colour and etc... (dunno hw to describe) i like all these cute lil boxes whereby i can put all my accessories like earrings, necklace etc.. haha.. and inside the container is a necklace with a dolphine pendant and an opal gemstone - triplet opal. haha.. am so touched by her.. didn't expect her to send me a gift.. and it is the first time someone send me a gift from overseas.. so it's very very special!! Meli.. thanks orhz! ^-^

today me and cs went to catch a movie - "step up". it is very nice.. after the entire movie, i felt like i want to learn dancing too!! haha.. and the most impt thing is to have a dream of my own.. but then again to have a dream is one thing.. to have the determination to fulfill is another.. haha.. so i needa find the cure first - which is the determination - before i can dream of something.. otherwise, dreams not able to be fulfill will be known as daydream.. haha.. me and my own logic.. after the movie, we went to changi airport for dinner.. took a bus there.. sat till out butt feels numb.. haha.. but i like the ride there.. cos get to see many places not like the mrt.. see nothing but the dark walls of the tunnel and maybe some advertisement.. Zzzz..

before i end this entry, i wanna add on what happened on monday.. *forgetful me.. on monday, i met up with my sec sch buddies namely - grace, peiwen and jean - we went to breeks at marina square.. wanted to treat them but in the end, they treated me dinner.. haha.. ate a lot that day.. i suppose is the starting of my big appetite recently.. haha.. took a lot of photos.. ain't sure what's wrong but just "obessed" abt taking photos.. haha.. grace etc bought me a purse to go along with my dress and a black jacket which i think it is very cool.. but i better shed some weight else i can't squeeze into it.. haha..

ok.. that's all.. mins away to freedom and maturity... =P

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Updates for the week

Had been really busy this whole week.. had to rush to school by 9am.. tuesday was the worst.. though there was 7hours break in between but i was in school from 9am till 10pm.. seriously Zzzz... went to IKEA during that 7hours and it seems still quite okie.. but wonder what i can do for the next few weeks during that 7hrs.. haix..

lesson hasn't been good.. maybe cos i didnt graspe last semester's work thus i am lagging behind.. (once again) another thing to note is i suppose i am the coldest person among everyone in class.. am now sticking to a few closer ones.. about 4. the rest, sometimes just smile or say hi. sometimes i am just simply invisible.. not that i am sad about they not trying to talk to me but on the other hand, i dun go up to them either.. seriously, is me brought all this myself.. so i concluded, the only solution is to focus on my goal..

yesterday, after lesson me and some of my good frens in U went to have jap lunch.. cos its the only day that we get to end lesson early. =) after lunch, we shop around.. maybe because of all the shopping i went home to eat 2 bowl of rice and the new fish and chip from kfc as supper.. haix.. fat already.. no need celebrate birthday so hack le.. hahaha..

last saturday was a wonderful day (though it rain very heavily).. starting was not well.. just when i stepped out from ntuc, it started to rain heavily.. not those normal rain but it just kept raining and wind kept gushing near the enterance. it was so bad that a car have to drive up the kurb (as in right in) to where the shelter was. but thank goodness the rain began to stop during the evening.. that day i felt like a princess. haha.. had background specialist to help me deco the chalet with balloons. makeup artist to help me with my makeup and a whole new set of clothes for the day.. not forgetting the cake.. it was pink and it looks so sweet.. haha.. it was really wonderful! wanna thanks everyone.. from the deco to my dressing.. they were all great surprises.. haha.. the presents were also rather unexpected.. maybe cos everyone knows i am simply crazy of "Goong" so i received a dvd on the "mu1 hou4 hua1 xu4" and soundtrack.. i was actually waiting for the price of these 2 items to drop but in the end.. haha.. next is the balloons li hui, peifeng etc got for me.. haha... it is personalize with my name =] and i think everyone like it too.. cos everyone seems to be taking photo with it. hahaha.. i was also given a portable dvd player which comes in handy cos my comp's cd-rom is not working and with it, i can watch the Goong - mu hou hua xu.. hahaa... some other pressies that i receive were perfume, towel, belt and a leather wallet!! the wallet (think it is leather) is special because it is given by my childhood friend - peiying and shuhui.. and i do not have such a wallet / handbag.. shuhui.. thanks orhz! wanna thanks peiying for the flowers too!! haha.. though it can't last for years.. but its beautiful..

lastly, i am so glad that i had my daddy and mummy for helping with the prepration of the food and shopping at ntuc and the market.. though my brother could not come, but he gave me moral support.. yeah! ^-^ and lastly, is cs. he also could not make it cos of duty.. =( but... he always listen to my naggings abt how things gonna be done and all the what if things doesn't turns right.. haha.. thanks orhz silly boy.. =p

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

celebration!!

looking forward to this saturday.. 11th November.. 111106. wahaha.. gonna celebrate moi 21st birthday with my friends.. though 11th is not the actual day, but as i plan to reserve the actual day for my family.. thus i decided to bring forward the day. =)

just felt that i am really lucky because i have friends helping me with the organising of moi celebration. hehe.. and most of them could attend moi party.. ^-^Y actually dun really expect nice or expensive present.. just hope the whole celebration will be a successful one.. and that is everyone enjoyed themselves and had fun.. dun feel like its some burden to come attend.. that's all.. haha..

many of the times while planning for the celebration, i asked myself why am i doing this? what's the purpose of inviting people and treating people to meals etc... though i still dun understand why. but i did came up with a conclusion. it doesn't matter why as long as i feel like. cos maybe after 21 years old, we can't have a party with metallic balloons or anything kiddy kiddy.. get wat i mean? maybe the party we are going to hold after the age of 21 will be more classy with wine glasses or fountain in the middle of some ballroom etc... haha.. i am starting to dream again.. =P

nevertheless, hope everyone coming will enjoy themselves not only me myself. haha.. =)

p.s: meli.. meet up when u come back orhz.. promise?? ^-^