if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

十万个为什么?

do you know?

do you know that tears are actually warm. sometimes it can be hot.
do you know crying makes one fever as well as headache
do you know crying can make one shiver and it will feel like electric current just went over you?
do you know crying makes one lose your voice?
do you know crying makes one feels cramp in the stomach?

all these happens when one cries too hard.

signing off... 5.45pm

Monday, February 25, 2008

just got back from kumon. blogging while having dinner...

had eye irritation in the morning. feeling rather uncomfortable even till now. my eyes are like a haze detector, more specially places with dust. ever since last night, i was already feeling the itch before sleeping. when i woke up, my right eye was a little swollen and somehow or rather, it just tears automatically.. maybe it was to get rid of the dust. didn't know what causes my eyes to itch until this morning when i noticed the sky was slightly hazy and my mum told me that yesterday night haze index was worst as compared to this morning. thus, i suppose it was due to the weather that causing my eyes to irritate. ain't the first time. =( scared one day i will be blind.. *touchwood.

today was quite a busy day for me. woke up late. hurried to send an email to a fren of mine to confirm the upcoming trip. have yet to receive her reply email. getting rather nervous and worried. dunno why either. sigh. hope everything turns out right and that i will receive her mail by tml. =/ went to orchard with jocelyn to get a top that i saw last week before heading to school to meet my teacher for lunch and then to kumon late noon.

was feeling really sleepy at kumon. kept dozing off. recently been sleeping rather late as i was doing some research. my eye bag as well as my dark rings are getting worst!! =( thus, i have to try to sleep early today. but i think is highly unlikely. hmm..

well, if everything goes well, i will be leaving for thailand soon. won't be back till sunday night. thus, in the meantime, try not to call me unless it is something urgent yeah.

before i end this post, wanna wish ben good luck in perth and a safe journey to both celeste and seetwei. takecare people!! =)

signing off... 11.08pm

Sunday, February 24, 2008

airshow (tue - fri)

unexpectedly this whole week had been a pleasant week. =) went to kumon in the afternoon for work. spend the rest of my weekdays at the airshow. with amber and daphne. our job scope, counter registration.

we got to wake up real early every day (tue-fri) as the shuttle bus that took us to the changi exhibition center drives off at 6.45AM. yup. the first 2 days i was late. thus, resulting in my daddy having to rush. but luckily daphne and i make it in time on the last day, friday. haha.. at least out of the 4 days, my daddy do not had to rush for us so as to catch up with the shuttle bus.

on tuesday, 3 of us were basically sticking with each other. not really mixing around. the crowd came in about 11 plus, 12pm because the flying air display by the black knights and roulettes starts around that timing. thus, all the counters were busy / frantically trying to process their registration. *phew

2nd day of the airshow, wednesday. started talking to a few people. the crowd was just as much as the first day. some were younger than i do, some same age. wonder how they got their invitations from. because the first four days were solely for trade visitors. thus, no kids under the age of 18 were allowed to enter. neither do those males that wore bermudas. got to know a gal (younger than i am) - laura. she is from SP, doing some business course (after a "heated" debate with amber, with words like, wrong i chop my head off and stuffs like that... i finally decided. fine! i shall change it. laura ain't from RP. haha... amber... u never fail to make me laugh sia.. but stop being so mean to me lah!!!!! haha... kidding) luckily she was there to help amber and i. else both of us going to have a hard time with the guests.. gotta know another new fren who was in charge of the phone sms registration, meng hua. the day ended with us taking photos while waiting for the bus as the bus came late. 1hour late. resulting in all of us reaching home around 8plus. *tired.

thursday was the same. talked to a couple more people. had lunch with amber and daphne because meng hua helped us to mend the booth. (rule: only one person can eat a time). gotta went into the airshow site for awhile to have a look before catching the bus. my first thought was, awesome. i like the wide space, the wind and the airbus. it was hugh. really really hugh. i seemed so so tiny standing beside it.. Zzzz...

friday, the last day working at the airshow. felt kinda sad and feeling really sleepy that i kept saying good afternoon when it was just only 8am!! haha.. super blur. =p the crowd that day was even worst than the first 3 days. which was not what amber and i predicted. it was that much people that the guest have to queue out of the registration hall. thus, some of us got into trouble with the people as they complained that we were slow and stuffs like that.. Zzzz... =.= we were trying our best. didnt want them to miss their air display show either. but can't help it right. anyway, *brush it off*. we only managed to have our lunch around 2 plus. luckily once again, someone helped us mend the booth - the 九零年 guy (cos he is born in 1990) so that all 3 of us could have lunch together. =) after lunch, started to pack up and stuffs. went into the airshow site the very last minute to take some photos of the planes and such.

left the place rather happily cos of... haha.. anyway, really enjoyed the whole airshow event. love the morning weather at the changi exhibition, (the breeze, the fresh air) despite having to wake up when the sky is still dark. the peak period that made the whole day seems to past faster. knowing those people working there, whom are mostly younger than i do.. making me feel so much older. haha. able to look at the planes........... though i am not a pro in the different kind of planes. =) and lastly, having my 2 meany beany pals with me... solid 1 and solid 2!! who never fails to make fun of me. *their latest craze: asking me to pronounce - heal, heel, whale, wheel!! =.= haha..

p.s: for photos, please go the amber's blog to have a look. but do not laugh at pictures that have me. many thanks!! *gRiN*

signing off... 7.27pm

Monday, February 18, 2008

a day to remember

only to be remembered..

utada hikaru - first love

saigo no kisu wa
tabako no flavor ga shita
nigakute setsunai kaori

ashita no imagoro ni wa
anata wa doko ni iru n' darou
dare wo omotte 'ru n' darou

you are always gonna be my love
itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochite mo
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
ima wa mada kanashii love song
atarashii uta utaeru made

tachidomaru jikan ga
ugoki-dasou to shite 'ru
wasuretaku nai koto bakari

ashita no imagoro ni wa
watashi wa kitto naite 'ru
anata wo omotte 'ru n' darou

you will always be inside my heart
itsu mo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
i hope that i have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
ima wa mada kanashii love song
atarashii uta utaeru made

you are always gonna be my love
itsuka dare ka to mata koi ni ochitemo
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
ima wa mada kanashii love song
now and forever..

.: there are many different english translation. update it another time :.

signing off... 2:36pm

Sunday, February 17, 2008

today is mummy's birthday. bought her a bouquet of roses while my brother bought her a cake. hehe.. went to amk hub fish and co for lunch. mummy's treat!! yeah.. but the air con was just way too cold that my pasta turn cold in a short while which made it rather awful to eat.. =.=

spent the whole afternoon helping a friend do some research. yeah.. "studying" during the holiday. haha.. is volunteering though. who to blame? myself. haha..

later part in the night, i tagged along my brother on his way back to camp. so as to get to drive my daddy's car. yup. drove all the way from jurong and back home. got scolded by my daddy all the way because i made a very very dangerous U turn on the way back (nearly hit a car - my dad says. but of course i deny =.= ) and many other small little mistakes. gee. *ashamed. well.... i seldom really get to drive despite holding my license for some time? thus, i drove badly.... hmm.. anyway.. i know is an excuse. i have the responsibility to be careful. sorry daddy.. i will do better the next round..

then after, met my kiddy neighbour for dinner and talked to my mummy about certain stuffs when i got home. mummy sorry.. *you know why...* for making you upset during your birthday. sigh.. sorrieee...

lastly, seems that there's quite a couple of sad moments today. both my mummy and daddy thinks i am naive. while my brother think i am rather dumb i supposed. as for naive part, that is the only thing together both of them will agreed on. is not i want to be naive. but i just want to open up the doors for more probabilities. probabilities that others might not realised? spare me from knowing right and wrong. hmm.. i dunno how to express what i trying to say. *complex me. one thing i learnt is to be contented. as long as there is peace among. i am contented. as for why my brother think i am dumb is more of a he gave me this feeling when i asked certain questions that he felt the only reply he could give is a "duh" but i will be like.. what "duh". and he would say.. it is so logical. not much of an explanation.. at times he will ask me to figure out on my own. but most of the time he will be real kind to explain to me briefly. *smile.

well, i dun deny i can be naive and dumb at times, most of the times (whatever). maybe that is why i treat others as friends even if others might not sees the same. izzit really a big problem to do so? personally, i not too sure. but logically it seems that way. i have yet to up my level to spotting the type / kind of people (one day circumstances might ask me to). therefore, all whom i know (even if there are only minimal talking) is considered as a friend. just a matter of diff closeness - normal, good, close, special etc.. they are not "passerby". arghz.. i am getting very long-winded (stop!). hmm.. in conclusion, i still have a lot to learn. but i am lucky to have lots of people around me that never fail to offer me help. =) i will work hard.

ok. next. what am i going to do tml... continue with the research in the morning. working at kumon from noon till night. so will be rather busy with the notti kids. more of a mischievous kids.. have to sleep early because gotta reach tanah merah for the airshow job by 6.45AM. yup. and latest update, jocelyn said she was not feeling sianz ("gua gua") on saturday. instead she was feeling very very very pissed off with the shuttle bus for being 1.5 hrs late to and fro.. which total up to be about 3hrs of bus waiting time? and she wondered why wasn't i angry. haha.. well, tink i felt more of a guilty for making my daddy rush. toopid bus. =p

think that's all for today.

signing off... 11.59pm

Saturday, February 16, 2008

gee. i am becoming a panda very soon. woke up rather early this morning. 7 plus. gotta go to kumon for work. *yawnz. after kumon, rushed down to tanah merah to catch the shuttle bus to the airshow destination.

yup. i am going to work at the airshow next week. =) was suppose to have a briefing next monday morning. but they changed the briefing to today. was rather last minute and i gotta ask my daddy whether he could give me a lift down after kumon as my work is till 1pm and we gotta to meet at tanah merah at 1pm. Zzz... but luckily, the supervisor agreed to let me leave slightly earlier when i asked her this morning..

upon reaching the meet up point, me and my friends waited for almost 1hr plus for the shuttle bus to the airshow site to come.. jocelyn totally cannot stand it. haha... she was like "gua gua..." the briefing was rather short. it was more of a waiting for the organizers to be organize (yah. funny right). but that was ok. because, the worst thing was the wait for the shuttle bus. after the briefing by the organizers, we waited for the shuttle bus (yes. again) for another 1 hour before it arrived. by then, i was almost fainting because i did not manage to eat much except for 1/2 a slice of yam cake (which was very small) and 旺旺 from daphne. by the time we reached tanah merah station, it was already 6 i suppose. did not take note of the time because i was busy playing with daphne's ds lite. hehe.. rather addicted. omg... =p

had dinner with jocelyn at orchard. ajisen. could not remember when was the last time i had that. but i remembered i had wanted to eat ajisen for quite some time. must be quite some time because i didnt know the price went up to 16 odd. i thought it used to be around 14 odd. ok.. 2 bucks dun seems like something big to some. but for me, i am quite poor u know... =)

after dinner, went to shop for office like pants for the airshow event. luckily both jocelyn and i managed to get one rather cheap pants from osmose at half price. =) saw a cream top which was a little like a jacket but yet not warm enough for me to bring to school during the lectures at bossini. really tempted to buy. VERY TEMPTED.. but i didn't. gotta to restrain a little you see..

by the time i reached home about 10pm, i was totally exhausted (but dunno why i still updating my blog..). tml shall be a rather busy day as i will be doing quite a couple of research. yup. so i shall go sleep now. hee.. =)

well, b4 i sign off.. on my way back, i saw a real big rat and i was stunt that i stood rooted on the spot for maybe a couple of seconds. the next thing i knew, my brother was standing in front of me. as he was on his way out. gee. dunno whether he saw my funny expression. ha. well, as i walked back. many things ran through my mind. do not know how to describe wat i really felt. but i supposed it wasn't something unplesant. yup. reminding myself to be contented and not to feel greedy. i supposed the feelings i felt during that few seconds was content bah. hmmm.. starting to talk rot. symptoms of falling asleep.. hee..

signing off...11.54pm

Lately had been sleeping rather late. very late in fact. hmm..

went to catch a movie today - jumper. my second movie for the month. the last i watched a movie was like quite some time ago. october last year i suppose. basically was busy. i suppose. anyway, realised i seldom frequent cineleisure to catch a movie. i suppose it was 2 years plus ago, june, since i went to watch a movie there. yup. anyway... the movie, "jumper", talks about a guy with a jumping ability. more like a teleport ability. the first time he realised he could "teleport" was when he was 17. the first location he teleported to was, his school library. which i have no idea why... maybe he was some hardworking person camping in the library. =.= anyway, the whole story is about how he was able to "jump" from countries to countries (tokyo, rome etc...) and how he was chased by a secret organization (which i could not remember wat the name is), how the secret org found him and another fellow jumper. lastly, realising the connection between the secret organization and his mum who abondon him ever since he was five. yup... i know i did not describe it very well and it might seems like quite boring. but i feel the action effect aint that bad. the jumping here and there, the fighting part.

other shows that i want to watch are:
1. p.s, i love you
(as i read the story before, 2 years back i suppose, thus i think it should be interesting to catch the movie. but i've got to bring lotsa tissue because even just by reading the book made me cried.. moreover a visual scenerio. =.=)
2. L: change the world
3. Sky of Love
4. Kite runner
5. 10,000 B.C (maybe)
6. Step Up 2: the streets
7. The spiderwick chronicles
8. Vantage point
9. chronicles of narnia: prince caspian

movies to rent:
1. national treasure: the book of secrets
2. shrek
3. bourne identity
to be continued....

signing off... 2.45am

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

early v-day greetings

early v-day greetings to all my couple friends and friends... haha..

well... used to like this song by wang lee hom - 我们的歌. i think the lyrics is nice and meaningful. Especially "情人总分分合合可是我们却越爱越深". It seems to apply to me. At least that is how i always felt. But now, i listen to the song in another new perspective. A perspective that it is just a song with meaningful lyrics and a wish that all of you guys would be happy with your love ones and that the sentence "情人总分分合合可是我们却越爱越深" applies to you all. *smile. 你们要加油哦！

as for the rest, your time will come.. dun be jealous okie? haha... kidding. =p

happy early v-day greetings!!

王力宏 - 我们的歌

已经听了一百遍
怎么听都不会倦
从白天唱到黑夜
你一直在身边(一直在身边）
如果世界太危险
只有音乐最安全
带着我进梦里面
让各自都实现
无论是开心还是难过
我的爱一直不变
不必担心世界流行太多亏欠
不论是HIPHOP还是摇滚
我的爱一直不变
所有美好回忆记录在里面
这张FOREVER LOVE那么深
我们的歌那么真
无国界跨时代
再不会叫KISSGOODBYE
有没有一句能够动人心弦
YE YE
情人总分分合合
可是我们却越爱越深
认识你让我的幸福
如此悦耳
能不能不要切歌
继续唱我们的歌
让感动一辈子都记得

signing off... 12.29am

Sunday, February 10, 2008

new blog skin

my new blog skin... =) started searching for a new blog skin a couple of days ago. to be exact, i wanted to change the skin long long long long time ago... haha... was really quite some time ago because the skin i wanted to use in the first place was already taken away by the creator. thus, leaving me with no choice but to search for a new skin... =p

couple of reasons why i chose the current skin instead of another one which was cuter (haha) were...
1. first attracted by the moon glowing. seems like shining on the stars
2. the stars that were luminous to me looks as if it is glow in the dark stars
3. anything that had got to do with glow in the dark, i just love it. what's more... we are talking abt stars!! =)
4. basically is the moon, the luminous feeling, and the stars that attracted me. that's all
- added advantage -
5. compatible in firefox (me use that at times.. so.. good to see my blog intact. as compared to the other)
6. can put music. (as compared to the other i wanted to choose at first)

you all got to agree with me the skin is nice right?? the luminous feeling!!!! haha... one day... one day i will pack my room and stick lots of glow in the dark stars.. haha.. ONE DAY!!

too bad could not show you guys my bottle of glow in the dark stars (great investment) as i just simply do not know how exactly to take photos of it. no matter how i try, the glow seems so minimal on the photos as compared to what i am seeing.. well... another day bah.. haha...

more updates on what had been happening the couple of days/weeks/months back would be updated shortly. i hope. or when i am in the mood to blabber... hehe...

will continue to modify the blog skin. not sure how often i will blog either. i blog when i feel like it. so.... p.s: jocelyn arh... dun keep asking me to update!! haha... kidding..

think that is all for now... =)

signing off... 12.12am