if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Monday, August 23, 2010

a child like tien chyi

today i saw a student that looks so much like like tien chyi..

is like the younger version of tien chyi or when tien chyi was in K1..

i miss my children lots...

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in this new job, i am adapting okay. i do my best regardless of what others might think. the thing that made me happy is that i get to go home early. have dinner or maybe dinner then rush for tuition, or after dinner, just relax and watch my tv shows... yeah. that's what made me happy....

going home early... have a more routine life.

however, i hope this job is just temporary...

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i miss my children again~

signing out... 10.45pm

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

third week at work. i miss my EK children lots..

Work had started to get busy...

I am now all alone without the mentor that i was tagging along. though I had other mentors too.. But I still have to try figure as much and not be reliant....

Spent 4 hours marking their books, preparing for next lesson and many other stuffs that I had yet to do.. especially commenting portfolio... I shall try not to procrastinate too much, work faster and smarter so as to get everything done this week.... cos next week is another brand new theme to do / decorate the class.

Yesterday someone from the HQ came down to look at our centre's performance which included mine. one of the 3 english teacher. was my 2nd day all alone. luckily, i think i did well. cos the lady said to the principal I was alert towards the children understanding of the lesson. *phew..

Although I am starting to like one or two of the children.

However.

I miss the rest of my children at EK (my prev kindergarten).

Tml shall be my third week without them...

They might have already forgotten me. But i still remembers them..

Missing them lots~

Signing out... 11.39pm

Sunday, August 15, 2010

today. is the day that Ai Ni will be flying off for her studies. We couldn't see her off cos is real early in the morning at 6 a.m.

this morning, i woke up and i suddenly felt a pang of sadness...

time passed so fast. 3 years ago, Ai Ni was just my tutor till lecturer and supervisor as well as my friend.. a friend that helped me through my studies and unknowingly light up the inferiority that i can do well in my studies too...

will miss the time when she was just a tutor, the time that was the most happiest (i suppose).. till the guidance she gave and the time we went for the conference.

*gratefulness*

hope Ai Ni takecare over there and keep in contact.. missing Ai Ni... *sobx*

signing out... 9.35am

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

story / 2nd week at work

story:

she thought that she would try her best to be positive. because complaining sounds so weak. she decided not to be weak and even if there's complain she will just swallow it. but she is just so .....

she thought that everything would be okay. however, she was proven wrong. she went home one day and the first thing she did was cry. hiding in her room crying and then walking out with nothing left in her mind.

she had been dreaming since she was born. and she continued to be dreaming.. she still holds a dream that seems so far away. like the sand in the hour glass that is slipping away which will be empty one day.

solution. stand on the spot and wait.

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today's work. what should i say...

everything seems okay.

yeah it was okay.

the hype at work. is how to celebrate the upcoming teacher's day celebration. the usual routine was, to have a good meal at some restaurant. but this year, they decided to go for a short getaway! ^^ although they are required to contribute to part of the trip.. but they had been trying to reduce the amount of contribution as much as possible.. and i think they did.. a bit. =)

yup. the principal asked me to go back and consider.. the teachers started asking me whether i will be going. especially the cleaner aunty. she is super excited when i said the principal did asked me to consider - which she takes it i will be able to go.. =) so teachers were discussing much last week however, i wasn't included, more like i didn't include myself cos the principal said she will check with me if i can go.... (sponsored) then come friday... everyone was photocopying their passport but i didn't bring mine though i heard them saying. then the principal suddenly asked for mine when no one told me....

but it's alright. principal was kind. asked me to bring on my next working day.. however, i forgotten =p

but it's okay. cos principal said she was sorry that she do not know whether i can go. as the head said i can't and that she will ask and sms me again..

so i am okay. next came the teacher organiser dealing with the planning. she came over and said "darling, would you like to come for the trip. however, u will have to pay the full amount cos you are not sponsored" my answer. oh. how much will it be. " hmm.. it depends. should range around 500 - 600+" my answer, i see.. could i consider and let you know again.

that ends it.

the principal did not come back to me. think she dun have to either. since it was less than 2 hours when teacher organiser come find me.

cleaner aunty said "forget it. not worth going"

my thought. *blank* but i wun be going.

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another interesting thing today.

today i did a relief for a chinese teacher. a solid 4 hour teaching with the nursery student. i would say i did well.. at least i wasn't shivering or a slightest bit of nervous teaching. =) *kudos to myself*

the past 2 days. my throat hurts real lot. to a point i actually lost my voice.

so after today's teaching. i went straight to the doctor cos i can barely hear my voice. not to mention i was turning feverish. doctor says: " 2 days mc. no talking." (same as the prev trip to the doctor).

am still considering whether to take mc for tml. cos i dun think i will get paid if i take mc. *clause ain't clear* and! i dunno whether i can claim my medical fees.. =(

cancelled tuition today hoping for miracle to happen tml.. =)

okay. that's all for now.

interesting day it had been..

i miss my children. they are my motivators..

signing out... 8.48pm

missing my children~

today is my second week at my new job. which also means is my second week that i dun see my children... i miss them so much... especially tien chyi....

hope today i will feel better and work is a pleasure~

signing out... 7.17am

Monday, August 09, 2010

happy national day

today is national day. also a holiday for every singaporean =)

is a good day except for i was sick the whole day..

met up with jocelyn in the morning to buy some of her stuffs. in the end, i bought more... then after, met up with grace to have lunch.. she was so kind and nice that she treated me lunch. i should treat her back some time when i am much more financially stable =) thank you grace! it was nice to catch up with ya..

lastly, happy national day...

hope i get well by tml.. else wed... i really dunno how should i teach~

nearly forgot... please let me get well tml... so that i dun have to spend money to see a doctor~~~ ^_^

goodnight...

signing out 11.42pm

Sunday, August 08, 2010

sick. again...

i am sick again~

this is the second time that i felt i might just lose my voice soon.. the last time was less than a month ago...

it felt good to have a great rest then..

but now that i have start work, i can't really afford to fall sick..

hope my throat heal before tuesday night~~

signing out... 10.34pm

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

problem. 3rd day...

i am trying really hard to adapt.

had never tried so hard for this line. it was never much of a problem.

but this time it is.

what exactly is the problem?

my internal problem. or the exterior ones......

signing out... 11.11pm

Sunday, August 01, 2010

today's weather made me feel good

since friday night. i had been feeling awful..

even during yesterday's kumon and tuition, i also did not have the mood to reprimand children for being noisy and not concentrating..

luckily this morning i felt better.. feeling the morning cool breeze made me felt better. felt cheerful..

so i started to keep my stuffs, my kumon worksheets, my bags which i dunno where can i put it, and. my notes left over from the previous kindergarten. in the end, i started stoning, looking at the children's name, thinking about how i had to rack my brain to pair them up to do their computer work.

is weird. but i still miss them lots.

maybe it will take about another month or so...

tml i will be starting work at a new centre. this time as a teacher. not a computer instructor. thank the teachers from my previous kindergarten for being so kind and helpful when it comes to handling the children. hope i can bring this knowledge to the new kindergarten that i am going to. so far, not very positive towards it. but i am sure i will be fine..

to friends who are starting a new life and path like me from tml onwards, good luck~ let's work hard together. jiayou. hwaiting..

signing out... 11.19am