if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

heart hurts so much till there was no more air

tears roll like it is never ending

disappointment on faces _ loved made the heart hurts

letting down made the tears roll

_ dun deserve the love _ had

signing out... 6.38pm

:/

:(

:'(

signing out....

Sunday, January 24, 2010

avatar (3D)

went to watch avatar (3D) with cs and brother today. =)

it's my first time watching a movie in a 3D version. haha. yeah. mountain tortise i know... but it is really really cool!! ^^ the story was really cool too..

i was told that some reported having depression after watching the movie. cos it kind of portray that reality is cruel and evil. well.......... mankind can be evil. but there are still mankind that are not. i believe~

anyway, for those had yet to watch it (been showing for a long time~).. would recommend to watch.. ^_^

okay. now about my haircut. well...... the comments varies.. older adults (mother, aunties, neighbour uncle) says nice. very nice. keep this hairstyle. haha.. younger adults (friends) + kids (kumon students) says not as nice as previous or no difference.... haha.. but what is the most interesting thing was some kindergarten students could not recognise me during their second lesson. keke..

anyway, whatever it is. change was successful! haha..

signing out... 11.36pm

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

happy gal....

i am a happy gal when........................

1. i get to see the kindergarten students..

especially my favourite student.. =p *bias..

2. no need to teach tuition

cos still feeling sick. so cancelled both tuition today.

3. to be continued....

i am a happy gal if...........................

a. i grow taller. ^^

b. i lose weight.

c. i get to meet shinee and super junior. haha..

d. i get to stay overseas, korea etc for one whole year.

e. to be continued too....

signing out... 6.13pm

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

changed

change made.

no longer need to use a rubber band.

signing out... 9.48pm

the day

today is the day.

going off right now~~

signing out... 10.53am

Sunday, January 17, 2010

sick

sigh..

my voice........ gone........ =(

my throat.......... hurts...... =.=

ain't sure when it started. maybe on thu when i went to the poly clinic to have a checkup on my calf which is like still hurting then.

now that my leg is recovering. i had to fall sick..

*gaining weight day by day........................... zzzz.........

signing out... 12.15pm

Saturday, January 16, 2010

change

i've decided to change. next week.

after several weeks and months of thinking. i've decided to change. change to what i am 10 years ago (somewhat)..

there's a little feeling of excitement.

however, the fear is a little greater...

what if it turns out badly.............

i gotta start thinking of various ways to hide.

zzz

signing out... 9.36pm

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

january and the latest craze - shinee

hiyee to all,

it had been a busy week since the start of January. and i am glad in someway. =)

tuition with bernice, canice kieran had started. this time round i had raised the tuition fee by a little. though it is somewhat below what was stated on websites however, i still felt bad to even raise it. anyway, i had thought of alot of ways and methods to teach and help improve them. hopefully things works out better than last year. *smile..

currently i am at the kindergarten. why? well.. i did quit the job at kindergarten. however, the supervisor said that the newly hired instructor did not turn up for work. could not even be contacted. so i was asked whether i could help her out today. yup! so here i am.. i wun comment on the new instructor but just dun really understand the actions. *shrug.

updates about myself, events and thoughts:
felt old. haven't been exercising for a way too LONG time (partly also due to lack of warm up and cool down).. which resulted in my left calf feeling strain (my mum says is muscle tear though). hope i can recover by friday!! cos i will have kickboxing and will be playing bowling with jocelyn, daphne and kt!
had been working quite a bit at kumon as well.. now i am like doing almost all the dept. a lil bit of here and there. used to be in the maths dept. now, maths on weekdays noon, and sat. english during weekdays night, and chinese during saturday. sigh.. my fav is still maths though....... but well........... i still look forward to kumon TML!! keke..

on latest craze..
latest craze is still the hallyu wave. korean wave.from super junior > you're beautiful (drama) > SHINEE (latest!!) - see picture below.

hope shinee will come to singapore.. haha.. they are actually. for an esplanade concert. but i can't attend =( hope they come for some personal concert or some fan meeting etc... =p i am returning to my younger days! though my chronological age ain't that young anymore.. keke..

lastly, many friends of my age are getting married. at least i had heard a few friend's friend are. and the lastest is my classmate of the same age. she is getting engaged soon... so happy for them. cos they had been together for a very very long time...... and everyone had speculated that they will be the next. wondered how my friend actually asked her. keke.. *just curious i can't see myself in that picture now. however i see myself flying everywhere, being at different countries and studying. wahhaha.. this is call daydreaming - dreaming when the sun is high up in the sky... zzz..

okay. gotta stop now. lunch time!

p.s: still a fan of super junior. plus shinee now. wahaha..

signing out... 12.15pm

Friday, January 01, 2010

Happy New Year...

hAppY NeW YeAR to everyone!! ^^

i wanted to blog about the changes in me for year 2009. however, as i was a little too busy, plus getting a little older everyday, i got tired very super easily.

since it is already year 2010 *smile* i think it will be more appropriate to state some of my new year resolutions. yeah? keke..

so, what are everyone's new year resolution? mine might sound a little negative (as usual? *grin), but well....

first and foremost.

i would like to be much more happier with myself. giving myself less restrictions and expectations on myself. how am i going to attain that? i've got no idea.. will just learn as it come =)

secondly,

i want to be more cheerful (that's about the same as the first....), more confident yet humble, less procrastination and more determination. for this, i wish to get a job soon and to decide on my direction (more or less) soon.

thirdly,

i wish for everyone around me to be happier. my family especially. and my friends.

next,

save more and spend lesser. be healthy, reduce weight.

and some other random ones,

treat everyone better. cry lesser, learn how to hold back tears, not to be overly emotional. work and play just as hard. be more determine in learning, moving forward to what i want. lastly, learn not to take things too hard.

okay. that's about it for now.

wishing everyone who do read,
happiness, good health, success and a better year ahead. ^_^

signing out... 10.59pm