if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Monday, July 31, 2006

Lesson 3

In deep trouble

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

world's turning, life's changing

been feeling rather confuse lately. maybe is i think too much (some will say as usual) or maybe i am just blur? gee.. now i'm getting confuse.. but i suppose i am just a basically think too much person. for e.g. i will try not to write too much of me and my own views and opinions.. else i might just portray a kind of "what i say is the last say".. i dunno.. but.. (maybe think too much again)

lately been having a certain weird temprement. sometimes like a "saint", but sometimes like so aware of what's happening around. someone once said. is ok to be "make use" by others at times.. on the other hand, there are times that we have to put a guard to protect ourselves. an invisible shield.. i never had a shield before.. never even had such thoughts. until now. not that i guard myself against everyone. but it's so sad that the environment changes a person's character.. i believe a 4 years old kid will never ever had such thoughts.. thus i came to realise, i have been living in my own protected world.. is this good or bad?

now, this is the confusing part. if we be ourself, but yet do not change according to the environment, we'll definitely fall back. but if we do change accordingly, we might just lose our own character. is so hard to be a balance. but i suppose... the solution is for people to accept others as per what they are.. which i suppose, is also sumthing difficult to.

*Note: written in a confuse stage. =P

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

updates updates on.... school

i have gotten my timetable for the semester. 1 sem = 4 months. and it seems like i will only be having 1 module out of 4 this sem. so.. hmm.. yippie. can find some part-time job.. haha.. *note: lobang pls inform.. hehe.. so i will just be having 1 lecture n tutorial on monday n thursday.. but 4months a term seems kinda short.. hmm.. wonder why.. is somewhat like in poly but yet.. i feel is kinda short.. gee..

the people.... well.. the people there are quite ok.. is only my first week.. have yet to talk to much.. just maybe more to 2 or 3 of them.. surprisingly there's quite a few poly students.. and they are from nyp.. hmm.. but not my batch. majority of the class are made up of girls.. and because those in poly have exemptions.. thus like me, they do not need to attend many lessons. therefore.. the class is sorta categorize now as jc and poly. or can also be said. exemptions and no exemptions. and within this category, there are smaller groups.. many seems to already know each other.. wonder how will this new school life turns out to be......

Monday, July 10, 2006

many many events

this week is full of events.. and its causing me to freak out!!! because i will be starting school next week and there are SO SO much things that i have yet to finish.. ARGHZ!!!

hmm.. celeste is leaving this coming thursday... she will be going to australia to study.. sobx.. though after we 4 started working, there had been very little time to meet up.. but now, the fact that she is leaving and might only meet a year or 2 later is getting into me... =(

so tml will be busy.. meeting them for dinner.. farewell dinner they called it. wednesday morning going for an orientation in the new school.. thursday visiting my relatives then to work.. and finally friday.. a time to pack my room.. the status for it is still 1/20.. *shake head

last saturday went for wn's 21st birthday celebration.. starting to wonder how would i want to celebrate it.. invite friends or just a normal one with family, friends and cs.. hmmm.. but a celebration will be a good time to invite friends that i seldom meet for a gathering.. but the thought of entertaining is like... *dun dare think.. well.. is still long anyway.. haha.. gotta do something to my room now.. before going out..

Saturday, July 08, 2006

1 week gone....

wanna thanks shu hui for the concern... hehe.. actually i am rather enjoying my jobless status right now.. haha..

what i did for the week... went out just now with cs for lunch then after went to catch Superman, shopping and dinner... was craving for ice-cream.. but haix.. didnt get to eat it.. sobx.. but the whole day was wonderful.. the guy who acted as superman was rather cute i think.. *oops.. but i think i like the lil boy that acted in the movie more... *double oops. haha... not much action.. at least spiderman have more actions.. dinner was great.. maybe because i ate until very very full.. so... i concluded i enjoy it lots. heex.. didnt manage to buy anything.. maybe next week...

didn't touch the computer for the whole week except going online for a few minutes and checking emails.. *am too lazy been sleeping till 11am every morning and having afternoon naps after lunch.. getting into quite a pig.. haha.. but.. i've manage to tidy my room a lil... yeah!! 1/10 of my study desk and 1/20 of my whole room.. :P think i will have to work harder on tidying.. else i will not have any time or mood to do so when school start this mid july... gee... *roll eyes..

school... kinda nervous about it.. this is the new phase that i am talking about.. a whole new environment.. new subject, new friends and lotsa discipline.. because is a good 1 hour plus of travelling to school... once again... haix.... =(

many many things to do next week.. tidy my room.. shop for some clothes before the sales end... shop for a bag, jeans and sandles... enjoy every minute of my next week.. try to meet up as many friends and most importantly... sleep early, wake up early.. and no afternoon naps.. ha!

Monday, July 03, 2006

Jobless

haha.. yeah!! i just spend my first day being jobless.. haha.. my contract had ended. and i am gonna step into a new phase in life.. :)

what i plan to do today.. i planned to collect my camera which had been brought to service and after that.. do some shopping.. but i decided to postponed it to tml. so.. my next plan was to tidy my room and do some running.. but... haha! did none.. used the comp a lil while after lunch.. and because the weather is so so so hot... i decided to pamper myself a lil by switching the aircon and have a nap. i mean.. is the first day of my "holiday" so i shld just rest right? haha..

well.. hope my holiday will be spend more meaningfully from tml onwards.. =)