if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

hurt.

after blogging how happy i was, i suddenly fell from heaven.

today i had to teach my form class. since monday i had a child going around telling his classmates not to like me. a child who is extremely obedient who turned his back on me when i talk to him but not to other teachers. a girl who refuses to say sorry when she is wrong but yet want others to say sorry when they are wrong. covering her ears and furiously shaking her head when i tried to talk sense and explain.

today is no better. the boy that the principal said i had quite an influence whereby she saw some changes in the boy... today said he dun like me. wants my mentor back. the boy who goes around telling his classmates not to like me started to be disrespectful to me. the obedient child and the girl is still the same. what's new is. the boy that i spend alot of effort on due to his lack of family support refused to do his work. was so angry with me that he use vulgarities on me. but cried when he saw me cried. when i said not to do his work anymore and just go play. he refuses and kept tagging me.

he really hurts me so much. i could not explain the feeling in me.

maybe i should have chose to be unethical and went to teach my woodlands children instead.

or maybe i was just not as suitable as what i thought.

signing out... 8.55pm

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

missing mood...

after almost 2 months of working, i am finally settling down. although i still cannot see the hearts of people. however, as long as my heart is pure and with the children. i am happy. just like how i was this morning. =)

had a meeting with the principal today cos i have to sort of pass on / "hand over" some duties to the relief teacher who will come in when i started my course - 4th oct. she was suppose to follow me around on monday - what the principal said. however, as she has another full time job so i have to brief the principal on her duties... honoured in some way cos i am only a newbie with less than 2 months experience. worried cos the new teacher has some sort of experience. sad cos i wun be seeing my children. especially now that i know a few more of them.... i am so going to work hard. hopefully!

feeling sad in the evening cos i miss my children in woodlands so much~ so so so much.... i have the chance to teach them once more. but i couldn't. omg. i am missing them so much that i have to drown myself with music to make myself feel better. my earphone is serving me well~ ^_^

gotta continue typing the report list for all my 3 classes... i am enjoying it. but feeling lazy... *bleah..

in the missing mood.. my children. my friends. everyone.

signing out... 11.14pm *blue*

Monday, September 20, 2010

life hasn't been that good.

i suppose i was the one that i making it bad.

there's so much things that is piling inside me. but i just can't bring myself to say anything. not that i dun want to. but what i am typing now is the best i can express myself.

i'm missing lots of things. but i am not ready for any...

signing out... 9.15pm

Sunday, September 12, 2010

September holiday

last week was a long week for everyone... P.H on a friday. ^_^

for me, it was the September school holiday for the kids. as a kindergarten teacher, i also had holiday. suppose to be.

however, i went back to school for meeting from morning till evening.. from mon - wed. and back on thu to set up the learning corner for my class.. yeah! what holiday is that!! mon - thu: school. friday. holiday for all. the only holiday during my Sept holiday!! arghz!!!

anyway, it's okay. i am learning to enjoy my things. and being happier.

missing the time i spend at changi airport and expo with my friends. maybe one day if i am really crazy. i might just go there alone to slack~ ^_^

happy working this week~

signing out... 10.00pm

Thursday, September 02, 2010

first teacher's day with new students~

Yesterday was teacher's day while two days ago the children celebrated teacher's day..

received lots of love from the children. showered with cards, flowers, chocs and red pens. even today i still received flowers from some nursery students.. =) am thankful for the love they had. even though it was just a short duration of one month being with them... not to mention, i had been really fierce to them most of the times =p

work hasn't been really bad. maybe the bad part of it was i could not be myself due to the tense situation / unseen politics around.. however, with some of the children, i am slowly trying to adapt. although i have other thoughts..

till then, takecare everyone. gonna update again.. =)

goodnight~

signing out... 11.00pm