am now at work.. stress level still as high.. didn't log in msn or skype cos fear that i would just explode on anyone.. as in, i dun want to.. but sometimes is just the frustration.. exploding the frustrations that is held within seems to makes me feel better. But NO. not gonna make anyone the victim.. ha. Thus, i am looking forward to the end of the month. cos it will officially be my last day with the company and i can finally relax, do my own things. watch anime, shopping, do some exercise (cos i feel weak), meet up with all my frens.. haix.. been a long long time since i meet up with my frens.. and i would love to stay at home to accompany my family.. and last and not to be forgotten.. tidy up the room.. So i am really looking forward to ending my job with this company. But as humans are complicated beings.. therefore i predict i will feel a little weird or that sumthing is missing when i stop work.. after all, i have been working for a year already..


currently, i feel moody and sian sian.. no matter how hard ppl try to cheer me, i just simply can't cheer up. at least i haven't return back to my hyper mood.. some how weird thinkings just pops up in my mind. like is better to be a quiet person then to be a cheerful n hyper person. why? cos when a person is hyper, ppl tend to always think that the person is forever like that. so if someone is suddenly quiet, they will keep asking.. but different approaches should be use on different people. like maybe some need some peace etc.. nevertheless, even if keep questioning is not the best approach but at least, they will feel warmth and that someone still care.. hmm.. dunno what am i talking liao.. haha..


well.. i finished the "where rainbow ends" by cecelia adhern.. as mentioned previously, the story is written in dialogues. not like those normal type whereby they have an introduction, body and a conclusion.. reading it feels like u are in the picture standing one side and looking at the whole story. This book is about 2 childhood frens, Rosie and Alex that have stuck by each other through thick and thin despite being seperated when they were about to head to college. Just when Rosie decided to head down to Boston to join Alex, something drastic happened to her that change her life totally. Taking her away from Boston and keeping her in Ireland. As Rosie struggled to cope her new life and pursue her dreams she also struggled to keep away from the thoughts as to whether she and Alex are meant to be just friends. Lots of misunderstanding, sheer bad luck and circumstances kept them apart for years. But eventually, they manage to past all the hurdles and be together. once again.


Nice story.. this is more about friendship. Most of the story setting are in Dublin, Ireland because the author is from Ireland. Her book P.S i love you will be film into a movie sometime soon. The lead actress will be Hilary Swank.. looking forward.. but i need to get a box of tissue. haha..

hmmm.. nope.. today, the blog is not about me. cos as usual, i am still having terrible weeks ahead.. forecast..


was looking through my friendster just now. and i saw that one of my classmate just ROM.. gee.. envy. (hmm.. actually not exactly. cos i could not even stand firm in my new phase of life..) anyway, am so happie for her.. is so nice to know of such happie news. though i wasn't told. just happen to bump into it. but just wanna congrats her.. hehe.. a big step into a new phase in life.. gee..

lately haven't been the best day in life.. i am getting more n more forgetful.. more n more blur.. just this tuesday.. i had some issues with my office keys again. having many occurance that i forgotten my office keys, i decided to check before i leave the house. and once again. i could not find it. thus, i decided i might have left it in the office itself.. but luckily me, there will be another colleague opening to door today.. so i dun have to that panick. when i got into the office.. the first thing i did, was to search for my "missing" key.. and yes! i found it. it is inside my wallet. thus, it has always been with me (indirectly in my bag) all along.. =.= am i thinking of something else or that something is bothering me.. someone asked. i dunno.. at least, i feel that nothing is.. but will anyone be convinced?


the next "LOST" incident.. i just lost an important card. a membership card.. i think it have been lost for 2 weeks. but i only started to look for it today. because, i always forgotten about it. i only remembered abt it when i reach the place and was like "oh! damn. i forgotten it. again." so so angry with myself.. i really dun want to pay extra just to make another new card. and suddenly i felt cheated.. everyone have this 13 month pay bonus.. except me.. what the..... angry angry.. today is definitely not gonna be my day.. yesterday's horoscope says that i am gonna have a not so good day. especially during work.. and i already felt that its gonna be true. since morning.. wonder how will the rest of the week be like..


something that i have just learnt.. its not always good to plan ahead. because, all u get is more trouble and headache.

yeah! Finally i am having better luck after having 2 1/2 days of bad luck since monday. must be cos i follow what the horoscope asked me to do.. hehe.. horo freak. anyway........ the best thing about yesterday was...... i finally realise that my brother is no longer the little brother i have... sobx.. touching.. haha.. i didn't had dinner yesterday. was about to prepare noodles but left the food to defrost and went to do my own stuffs. when i went to the kitchen to cooked, to my horror, my brother actually took my ingredients to cook noodles. i was like... argh!!! cos the first thing that pop up in my mind was... my brother is gonna eat my food!!! argh!! (i was hungry u see.. thus the HUGE reaction) anyway, i was so so so guilty when he said he was cooking the noodles for me... sobx...*tears of joy.. finally.. he thought of me.. his big sis.. he was so so so guai yesterday that he even wanted to fry an egg which requires another pan.. (being the cldn't be bothered him, usually he wld not) anyway, i say its okie.. he can just put inside the soup which he immediately did.. =.= (ok. he did hesistate a lil first) i even offered to wash the pans etc.. which he didn't reply and i suppose is a silence "of course" haha.. anyway, so so happie. so touched.. awww... :)


later i will be meeting my sec sch buddies for dinner.. whoopee.. haha.. though i see grace often and not the rest.. but still very happie.. maybe cos grace say she gonna intro us to a place whereby she is now addicted to... think she is more addicted to the chocolate fondue bah.. hmm.. but its okie.. cos i am happie cos we are gonna eat nice food!! haha.. alike poles also attracts. haha.. happie happie day.. :)

Ok.. i am not even feeling the slightest bit of motivated in doing anything but just reading the book that i am so wooha in right now. just simply couldnt get my hands off it. even right now in the office. =x this book is special.. why? cos the way the story is written is in conversation form. the story was told through letters, email and messenger conversation. ok. great. i dunno how to express.. =.= how am i going to go back to study with such weak expression. sucky..


since monday it had been a sucky day.. got into trouble with people. even stranger i also wanna find fault in... but somehow, the incident still ain't getting out of my head. i went to bring my shoes to the cobbler for mending.. there was 2 cobbler. one with a few customer waiting. the other with none. so i went up to the one that is so so free without realising what i am heading for. presented my heels and got this very bad feeling. he seems so "unskilled". but i was like.. argh. hack. but the last thing i expect is him sawing the nail that binds the rubber piece on my heel and the shoe. (he was suppose to pull the nail out and insert a new one.. not SAW it) well.. so there goes my heels. and when he finally "mend" it with superglue... and the shoe wasn't balance. it had different heights. =.= so i refuse to pay him and he still have the cheek to say, its okie if the shoe ain't balance.. $#@&#


haix. anyway, i think i will just forget it since it was over.. a lesson learn. trust the queue.

ok. what else can i ask for on a monday. The first day of the week and i felt this bad luck sensation... okok.. maybe is not bad luck. just forgetful as usual okie. this morning.. i had an extra exercise before the start of work. of all things, i forgotten to bring the office key. yeap. and the worst part is, my colleagues all went to KL for work.. yup.. this whole week will be me alone in the office.. freedom.. woohoo.. but still hate the fact that i have to walk all the way home to get the keys.. and is not that i am still in amk.. i am at somerset.. reaching my working place.. argh... hmm.. but ok lah. thank goodness my house nt that far and there's sumthing call the MRT.. =.=


okie. enough of the grumbling. just venting a lil anger here and there.. :) well.. time passes fast.. my contract will be ending soon.. end of the month.. dun ask me if i will wanna continue my contract.. no way.. nope. never. i dun want.. haha.. what am i going to do next.. well.. yet to be confirmed. what i want.. i wanna go shopping... watch movies.. eat nice nice food... (suddenly the idea of lose weight has vanished) i wanna pamper myself... trim my hair.. do my hair a lil cos it is in a terrible condition.. *dreaming.........



hmm.. last friday, was a wonderful friday.. haha.. went to watch over the hedge after work. its funny and touching... then went to have dinner at cs house.. his mum cooks yummy food.. haha.. really fatten myself that day.. haha..


currently reading another book by cecelia ahern. "Where rainbows end" have yet to finish the book.. so maybe will talk abt it the next time.. another book by cecelia ahern - "PS I love you" will be converted to a movie maybe sometime next year i think.. yup.. think gonna be touchy cos is somewhat like "the notebook, message in a bottle" by nicholas sparks. yeah.. somehow,just like this kinda books / movies.. haha..

hihi.. i am back from KL.. haha.. got a lil fatter.. :p cos ate lotsa junks on the way.. haha..



well.. took the 5 hours ride from beach road to KL.. hmm.. first time step into the tuas custom.. was very clean, quiet and no people.. haha.. even the malaysia custom at the second link was clean and cooling.. haha. hmmm.. didn't manage to shop much.. but visited a very huge shopping center.. Mid Valley megamall.. it was really very very big.. i was like *gosh.. is bigger than causeway point.. hmm... might be as big as marina square or slightly bigger.. and i shop itself could be as big as a 2 level HMV in heeren.. it was a pet shop that i see.. *jaws drop.. anyway, was amazed. but didn't get to shop at all.. didn't had the time.. and was so in a working mood..



took the chance to take the train in KL as well.. there are actually many train providers in KL.. so if wanna change to another train have to buy another train ticket.. and the interchange is actually not link.. not like the one in dhoby ghaut.. yup.. have to go out and buy the ticket and go in again.. the more modern ones are called the LRT.. though the waiting duration is slightly longer, but is DEFINITELY better then the older mrt system in KL.. i was like damn.. argh!! waited for 10-15 mins for a train.. and when the train finally come.. everyone seems to rush in as if there's gonna be a disaster.. okok.. am proud of singapore train system k.. yup.. anyway, just felt this is quite an experience.. kinda taught me how lucky i am in singapore.. no offence.. just stating the difference..



well.. overall.. is a good experience to visit KL.. thought KL will be more like s'pore.. but it wasn't.. but was glad to have A & W there.. haha.. yummy yummy root beer with ice-cream.. woohoo.. :p

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