It is almost the end of week 4 and my grp had just finish our week 4 presentation. haiz. still kinda numb. the presentation was ok. but i am just afraid of what's up next. need some help with starting. i got TOTALLY no idea on how to start. what am i suppose to do.... arghz!!!! HeLp!! Hopefully i will have some ideas soon. else... *shake head...
Though others might find that fypj is still kinda long [8weeks] but to me, i find that 8 weeks is very short. because times really flies. and i mean REALLY FLieS!! haiz. maybe i am running away from reality. but i really hate the thought that i have to work after graduate... really really dread it.. sianz...
Lotsa mixed feelings lately. i also dun really know how to say. all i know is, i must start to discipline myself else i will get myself into trouble. i will sink into "it" deeper and deeper... sounds chim? anywayz, i also dunno wat i am talking about... = )
well... almost time to go home le. lately been listening to "Li Sheng Jie's" songs. rather nice orhz. ppl go listen k. Hungry... [counting down...] wondering what i will have for dinner. Oh! i nearly forgotten to mention. one of my fypj teammate [Gary] he is actually born on the same day as me. but too bad. different years. but it was like so cool. haha. even Mingxuan[gal sitting beside me] is born in november. that makes 3 scorpios and 1 aquarius[which is poor Edwin] in my fypj team. haha. cool not? where to find such coincidence right? fypj might be a lil boring, but to me is quite fun. not that i had fun bullying edwin[with the help of Mingxuan] but just that he is very fun to play with. dun mean whatever i say though. but so glad to know Edwin too. without him, fypj wun be that fun le... [actually i meant, without him, dunno who else to "bully" le. wahahaz] (*1 more min and it will be 6pm)
lately Li hui, celeste, pei feng they all too bz to "pei" me go out le. so sad. but have to understand. coz i also been thr wat they are going thr right now. but still so sad. dunno when we can play badminton together. haiz. ok lahz. time to signout le. Byez...

think the no 20 is getting into me lately. another.... 1,2 ... abt 9 more mths and i will soon turn 20. people around would then ask "are u gonna get a bf soon?, when will ya be getting a bf soon? etc etc" haiz. when people ask such Qns. i will only tell them. "arghz.. dunno. " and i will start having headache. maybe is because of the Qns that people ask so lately i sorta imagine how me bf will be like.. wahahahaz. [haiz. not only i am becoming more girly but i am also becoming more dreamy... =p] anywayz, back to topic. think my bf shld firstly be like Nick Shen WeiJun [decided not to capitalize. haha.] so cute and so full of ai xin. hehe. he must be kinda shy but yet initiative. [contradicting?] must be a good guesser. [at least with wat i am thinking.] must accept all my bad points. [kinda silly right? anywayz, decided to change all my bad pts into gd points b4 finding a bf]. lastly.... he muz be creative because i like surprises. hehez. well... after stating all these, i think anyone who read this must have been frighten away le bahz. wahahaz.
P.S: people who read this whole chuck of "rubbish" please take note... that this is just for fun and it is subjected to changes. wahahaz. =p

HeLLoz.. me back once again. haha. came in so late to blog because i waited for my "sickening" but adorable brother to finish using the computer. haiz. he juz wanna make me be panda. tat's all. *cry..
went to see the doc in the afternoon. he says that the stomach discomfort i am having now is because of too much gastric juice in me. and why do i have that? he says it might be because of the stress therefore sometimes i will feel as if i wanna vomit[but didnt]. BUT... i dun feel stress at aLL right now. so why am i feeling this way. so duhz... dunno should i listen to wat the doc says... anywayz, went to meet my mummy at Jack's Place. had to walk under the rain because i didnt had an umbrella with me then. sianz.. didnt really felt like eating at first. but after stepping into the resturant. i feel like eating everything. wahahaz. But good things nvr last right? when i reached home, i feel so sick once again. head throbbing, stomach discomfort. haiz. really hope i will feel better tml. nitez then...

here i am once again... didnt really sleep well coz the pain that my headache is giving me is just so terrible that i have to eat panadol [which i normally wun so this shows how painful it is...] but i eventually got to sleep though i woke up a couple of times. now i know wat i hate. Headache. haiz.. hopefully i will feel better later because i really wanna enjoy the dinner later. i dun wanna look so sianz sianz then my mummy will also feel sianz. spoil the whole mood... gonna see the doctor later ard 4 because now very very hot outside. felt as if i will faint if i am to step outside. haha. *yawn. feel like sleeping again.
oh ya! forgotten to say that me very happy. because yesterday Gary [fypj fren] and his frenz help me fix my blog. now got stars again. hehe. Yeahz! thankz Gary and frenz.. hahaz.
might come back to update my blog again later if i aint lazy or tired.. =p see ya.

Yeahz. today is my mummy's birthday. hehe. yesterday i went to order flowers for her and ask the florist to sent to her. hehez. she say she like it alot orhz. happy happy. ^.^
was suppose to be happy but dunno why suddenly i felt so sick. think something is wrong with me internally. haiz. ate very little during lunch. only ate abt 1/3 of it. wiLL i really get slimmer like this? haha. [P.S: i am not eating so little on purpose orhz. aint dieting either.] arghz.. feeling so sick again. think the only cure for me is to play game every minute. wahaha. because when i was playing game just now, i was ok. but now. back at my seat, i am feeling terrible again. wanted to go home right after lunch de. but decided to stay. so sianz. haiz... hopefully i will be ok by today. else tml when i go eat at Jack's Place to celebrate my mummy's birthday, i wun be able to enjoy le..
another 1 hour and 40 minutes and i will be able to go home le... think i will shower and have a nice sleep until the next day.. wahahhaz.

hehe... here i am again. lazy to do my project so decided i should come and have a look at me blog. haha.
Had a wonderful and surprising day the day before. haha. but i think the person who is the most happy was my mummy. haha. because my mummy is kinda "worried" why me got no bf. but when she saw that i actually received flowers on Valentine, she was like... "Phew..." hahahaz. anywayz, it was a very nice Valentine this year. hehe. =p [heyz, dun get me wrong orhz. me not showing off orhz.]
Yesterday i told my boss that i wanna change shift with her this saturday. From afternoon to morning. But she was kinda unhappy. She had make it clear from the first day that she dun like her staff to change shift just because we wanna go out and have fun. anywayz, after that she msg back and say "u dun need to come on sat". because she had found someone to replace me le. i should actually feel very happy right? and is not that i dun understand why she is angry. but her sentence "u dun need to come on sat" is very hurting. haiz... really no mood for the whole day. i felt that if i do another thing wrongly, she will treat me eat "cuttlefish". haiz.
Met up with Grace yesterday for dinner. [which kinda make me forget abt work] Is been so long since we last met. We had Delifrance at Novena after that we went to have coffee nearby. Hang around at Novena chatting and catching up with each other until 10 plus. hahaz.
*Today wiLL be a better Day*

today is the 1st day of Chinese New Year. This year's cny is the same as the past few years. To be exact, the same as past 3 years... haiz. [people who are close with me might guess why...] kinda disappointed with someone today. still trying to work out why things wiLL turn out this way. just hope that someone will tell me why and tell me how i should walk my next step. Aint sure why, but i just felt that somethings might change my life this year. People, please pray that is not something bad k. keke.
Kinda stuck. Haha. dunno what to write. Aint good in expressing wat i wanna say. Suddenly wondered why i created this blog. hahaz. 4 fun & laughter? =P
Uh oh. is gonna be midnight soon. gotta sleep. Hope tomorrow will be a better day... Yeahz!^.^Y

hmmmz.. felt so bad. i seems like i have neglected my blog. but i juz cant bear to see it. coz is so plain. sob sob. [haha..] today is Chinese New Year Eve. but i am stiLL in school. =( should be able to sign out soon. in a few minutes time... hehe.
School: Had some progress with the websphere liaoz. Yeahz! ^.^ hopefully this time i can learn sumthing and dun have to keep rely on others to help me. [feLt so useLess when i alwayz ask ppl to heLp]
oops. the TO is chasing us le. Byez! ^.^

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