if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

why!!

why.

why do i have to get sick at this point of time when all the assignments and mid term test is round the corner!!

total crap. sigh..

never thought climbing up the stairs when one ain't feeling well is so tough. felt like i was 60 odd plus years old. even walking back from the station seems forever. practically have to drag my feet. praying no one come rob me. cos i can only freeze. no strength to run. or maybe to scream at all.

what's wrong!!

now is not the time!!

hope i get well soon..

dyslexia, mach band and me at stake...

signing out... 11.00pm

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

just finish my social psychology blog assignment. the last entry for this assignment. usually i only take about 1hour to type it out. but this time round.. i do not know why i take at least 2hours to. sigh.

but at least i got it done out.

this semester is going to be the last semester before graduating from year 3. starting to like psychology. starting to like social psychology. especially the topic that i just blog about. gain new insights by reading it. maybe it is just so applicable.

it is Wednesday. will be going to the airport for project discussion later before going to school at night for lecture.

shall go and sleep now. since it is rather late to continue my homework.

promise kept.

goodnight. everyone.

signing out... 2.12am

Monday, April 21, 2008

demoralized

1.15am

am still struggling with the elder abuse essay. what is taking me so long. i just simply can't finish it.

demoralized.

signing out... 1.16am

Friday, April 18, 2008

18th - tired, tedious but rather happy

today. is the 18th.

today is a rather tedious day for me. feeling really tired in the morning. could hardly open up my eyes during the 1st part of the tutorial. but luckily, i slowly started to regain my conscious during break time. must be the food.. yah.. greedy me.. *crave for Japanese sushi... =p

tried my best (for today) in completing my assignment. but, i failed. hmm.. despite failing to complete, however, i felt quite please at least i did not keep whining about it. right? =)

hmm. thanks.

yeah. i am becoming a panda. sigh.

looking forward to the day i finish ALL my assignments. i know i can do it. whine lesser. be more determine. i can make it through.

might try to sleep early today because of the usual routine tml - work.

okay. before i go and try out my new experiment on the blog, shall report a shocking incident. today on the way home, there was a lady (maid i suppose) going up the escalator with a pram. but with no toddler inside the pram. lucky. ain't too sure what exactly happened. but upon reaching the base of the escalator, me,daphne and jocelyn heard a sudden loud sound and the next thing that we saw was the maid falling off the escalator that was going up together with the pram. luckily two other ladies, which i presumed to be the madam of the maid, at the base of the escalator saw the incident. They quickly went up the escalator and gave the maid a hand before 3 of them reached the top of the escalator. It was a great relief. Do you now realise how dangerous the escalator could be? especially if you got caught / stuck. so do be careful people..

okay. i suppose that is all for now. takecare everyone..

*blocked*

signing out... 10.06pm

Monday, April 14, 2008

=/ 生病

currently at home. the "sick" virus finally caught me. sigh.. wonder what concetta would be teaching today. not that i am hardworking. but seldom miss class. hmm.. today is the second time i miss class. the first i remembered was because of my eye infection due to the hazy weather. that was last semester.

hope i feel better for kickboxing class later in the evening. always look forward to it. because that is the time whereby i can perspire and be refreshed and most importantly. not think. yeah. well, not forgetting my - pretty & cute - buddy ----- daphne. sheez.. (i still think a person can only have 1 trait. choose 1!!! =p ) haha..

hmm.. takecare to all around.

get well soon to myself.

signing out... 9.45am

Sunday, April 13, 2008

nostalgia

it was a rainy morning on friday. the rain was really heavy. like it would never stop pouring. got up for class and the first thing was to be sandwiched between them.. *helpless. the floor was slippery. especially when the sole was wearing off.. thus i was glad that by the time i got off the train, the rain had stopped.

was in a daze during lunch. just simply lost in my own world. ain't any idea what is happening around me, what were the rest talking about. *sorry amber, jocelyn and kaiting.

after lunch, headed back for dental appointment. as i was too early, i decided to go to popular bookstore to get some stickers for david and stationaries for myself. it was only once in awhile would i then walk all the way to jubilee. the feeling seems so.... familiar. spend almost 3 years plus at the bookstore. seems like another home of mine during the weekends. suddenly missed my boss. the times that she would reprimand me for being blur and slow, the times whereby i have to run to work in the morning for fear that boss will scold me for being late (haha..), saturday nights, sunday morning.. that was my routine then.. it was good times..

some of the shops had thus change ownership while some decided to stop their rental. the cinema is still there, but the ticketing counter is quieter then ever. wonder how many people still patronized the cinema there. maybe i should. one day.

got my stuffs from popular. still early. went around exploring. recollecting the times. wondered if the arcade still exists. decided to check it out. was surprised and glad that it does. though they change some of the games station's position.

well, basically, the whole building seems rather deserted. wondered if they will tear it down. do hope they dun. cos it contains my memories.

saturday, weekend dun feel like weekends. as in, nothing special. saturday is usually burnt. wanted to go to my favourite hideout. but was too tired. headed home early. haven't been online for some time. decided maybe i should just go in, say hi and ask how are some of my friends. but, i suppose it was a wrong choice. yesterday was really not my day. felt everything was wrong. at least whatever i said seems so wrong. sorry to all that talked to me yesterday. am really *sorry*.

maybe everyone was right. i dunno how blessed i was. dunno how to appreciate. got quite frustrated halfway through the conversation. cos i just felt, who are you to say i do not appreciate when you do not even know me well or what is happening everyday to me. i know i took it too hard. so here i am, apologising. maybe everyone was right. i was the one wrong. all along.

sunday. everyone was out as usual.. busy with work and own events. watched anime while having brunch. thought back about how i used to watch anime during my fypj. everyone thot i was working hard on my project behind the stack of books. but, nah. haha. remembered how i would adjust the screen small and hide it at one corner for fear that lecturers would come in to spot check. fypj was one of my best time and my most memorable time. had dinner out with my brother and daddy. i was to drive today. but i supposed i wasn't in a mood for driving, thus i decided i shall let my brother do the driving instead. watched death note 2 and now, blogging.

hmm.. that is all for now..

my life is boring. isn't it?

signing out... 11.54pm

Thursday, April 10, 2008

-edited contents-

was suppose to visit the singapore association of mental health today. but, due to some miscommunication with our school organizers, 4 of us decided to give it a miss.

despite having to miss the trip, jocelyn and i still decided to go on with our initial plan....... bowling!! =)

went to the bowling center at kovan. was said to have the best maintain lane as compared to other bowling areas. lately quite addicted to it. not forgetting the bball game too.. haha..

had lunch after the games.

maybe i was too tired. so i fell asleep when i reached home. sigh. wasted a whole day. have to do better next time - stay awake.

hmm.. i suppose that is all for now. nothing much.

oh, before i forgotten.. lately the playlist on my blog seems to have problem. might not load out at times. maybe will only load the next day.

signing out... 10.49pm

wednesday - glad

sorry people. i had been out of contact lately, from my phone etc... can't say anything but sorry. to those who were wondering why. sorry...

hmm.. been 1 week plus since i last blog. does it seems very long? some say is only 10 days. but it seems long..
at times each day will pass so slowly. but when it comes to assignment due date and... etc.. time just pass so fast. *ignore me. talking nonsense =.=

just finished my blog assignment for social psychology. had a long long day yesterday (cos now is already thursday...) wednesday is always the day i dread the most but yet look forward to at times..

had a full day of class. from 9am - 10pm. (the long hours is what i dread..) got home at about 11.30pm. that was why i still ain't asleep yet. because i gotta do the post. my eyes were closing and i could barely keep myself awake. gritting my teeth.. i made myself finish it. *yeah.. =)

am quite please with myself. hmm.. ok. to be honest. rather please with myself.

for finishing this week's entry. on top of that, i am pleased with my performance in class yesterday. did not doze off during the lectures. maybe just once or twice. but i suppose is rather understandable right? at certain point of time, lecturer's speech can sound like some lullaby. plus!! the 13hrs in school... hmm.. okok.. i suppose you all get what i am trying to say..

i enjoyed dr foo's lecture. though i admit that most of the time i will fall asleep. felt bad towards him. but at least today i did not. i was wide awake during his lecture. Dr Foo's lecture is always interesting. he is one knowledgeable, interesting and yet sarcastic person (at times). Today he shared with the class his experience on a hot air balloon as well as the feeling of sky gliding with his wife. he seems to had visited quite a couple of countries. he can go on and on with all his experiences all over the different countries, each country's culture etc...

hmm.. basically, my mind just ran while listening to the experiences. well, maybe some feeling as well... was it happy? was it sad?

*out of point again*

anyway, i suppose it feels great to be able to travel all over the world and together with his wife. Dr Foo really knows how to enjoy his life / retirement life. But i can assure you, he do not look a least bit like he is in the retirement age. not a bit. =)

lately a couple of people had fallen sick. those around me as well as my classmates etc.. please do takecare, people.. get well soon.. sigh.. i also gotta.. can feel the flu symptoms.. not my turn please.. at least not now..

signing out... 2.20am