if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

hungry!

i am so hungry~~

now at the kindergarten. waiting for the next class to start at 1pm.. and i am so hungry~~~~

i know i am putting more weight.. (p.s: putting more weight at undesired areas is bad) but but but...................

i am craving for sandwiches, pasta, jap and korean food, chinese dim sum, fast food - kfc, long john silver, and prata..

sobx...

brain: i dun want to eat
stomach: u must eat..

arghz...........

hungry ~~

signing out... 12.30pm

Saturday, July 25, 2009

angry angry angry

i can't help but feel so angry with myself.

for all the carelessness i made the whole of this week. which are costly (cos some things are important to me - my perception).

arghz..

so angry..

can someone just punch me and wake me up. or i will just punch myself.

arghz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

signing out... 11.29pm

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

my desktop is finally being sent back.

lately i had been complaining that i am very busy. but yet, i do not know what am i busy with. =p

will be back in school for some stuffs these few days. going on a short trip to malaysia (berjaya hills & genting) with celeste, peifeng and lihui.

after the trip, i have to work very hard to finish some school work as well as with my part-time job.

this morning, mummy asked me once again. when am i going to find a full time job. am feeling the pressure from her.. but... i am committed to the kindergarten job. at least, i hope to finish the job till the end of their semester. so. i decided. the solution would be. find as much part time jobs. work faster. walk faster. eat faster. sleep lesser. haha..

okay.. that's about it.. updates on songs tat i am listening~~

郭静 - 在树上唱歌

作词：姚若龙作曲：陈小霞

你说的每个笑话我都笑了
是你变幽默还是我变快乐
好久不见你说我大不相同
偷偷告诉你我的心去整型了

不想对每件事情都那么严格
弄得全世界好像只剩挫折
爱一朵花不猜它能开多久
放宽了心情把什么都变美了

想要光着脚丫在树上唱歌
好多事物全被缩小了
心里不想放的就去了算了
让太阳把脸庞给晒得红彤彤
想要吹着口哨在树上唱歌
要像开往远方的火车
可以那么轻快的穿过山洞
大树上还很空你要不要陪我

你说的每个笑话我都笑了
是你变幽默还是我变快乐
好久不见你说我大不相同
偷偷告诉你我的心去整型了

不想对每件事情都那么严格
弄得全世界好像只剩挫折
爱一朵花不猜它能开多久
放宽了心情把什么都变美了

想要光着脚丫在树上唱歌
好多事物全被缩小了
心里不想放的就去了算了
让太阳把脸庞给晒得红彤彤
想要吹着口哨在树上唱歌
要像开往远方的火车
可以那么轻快的穿过山洞
大树上还很空你要不要陪我

想要光着脚丫在树上唱歌
好多事物全被缩小了
心里不想放的就去了算了
让太阳把脸庞给晒得红彤彤
想要吹着口哨在树上唱歌
要像开往远方的火车
可以那么轻快的穿过山洞
大树上还很空你要不要陪我

想要光着脚丫~

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郭静 - 明白(中视强档韩剧《伊甸园之东》片尾曲)

作词：王雅君作曲：王雅君

你说了一万遍的你爱我你说了什麽我都懂
因为爱很久所以我都懂
可是我发现没人能永久就算我们曾勾勾手
还是会寂寞没有你之后我才明白的更多

你看着我来我看着你走
生命有太多分分合合难免要承受的痛
你看着我来我看着你走
就算捂住耳朵我还能听见你呼吸的温柔

你说了一万遍的你爱我你说了什麽我都懂
因为爱很久所以我都懂
可是我发现没人能永久就算我们曾勾勾手
还是会寂寞没有你之后我才明白的更多

你看着我来我看着你走
生命有太多分分合合难免要承受的痛
你看着我来我看着你走
就算捂住耳朵我还能听见你呼吸的温柔

你看着我来我看着你走
生命有太多分分合合难免要承受的痛
你看着我来我看着你走
就算捂住耳朵我还能听见你呼吸的温柔
就算我会心痛你的好永远都填满我心中

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郭静 - 心墙

作词：王雅君作曲：王雅君

一个人　眺望碧海和蓝天　
在心里面　那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越　
我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝　因为有限

我学着不去担心得太远　
不计画太多　反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天　快乐地看每一天　Wooh～
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解　
我感觉我懂你的特别

你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗　
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙　
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放　
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化

我学着不去担心得太远　
不计画太多　反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天　快乐地看每一天　Wooh～
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解　
我感觉我懂你的特别

你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗　
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙　
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放　
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化

你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗　
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙　
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放　
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳

signing out... 12.45pm

Monday, July 13, 2009

my desktop is currently being send for repair. so i will not be on msn for now till it is resolved.

email me or sms me if anything!! =) i will check whenever i have access to the computer..

signing out... 6.37pm

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

good morning once again ^_^ am here at work at the kindergarten.

finally my schedule is finalized for the month of july. though busy, but glad that i have a clearer idea what i am going to do. the next thing is to tear myself away from the computer. or should i say the dramas and start working on more important stuffs.. sigh.. honestly, i wished for another 2 months holiday break to do what i want to do (at my own pace).. =p

for the next two weeks, will be busy running over to the kindergarten to teach in place of my supervisor cum boss [my guess].. the last two weeks of july will be spend back in school to collect a few more data. basically, two weeks of work, two weeks of school.

recent updates.. recently, i had been watching drama. sad to say, the link for the show "likable or not, 爱也好，恨也好" is broken. so i could not continue watching the last few episodes that i missed out. so....... am now watching hana yori dango (korean version).. =p hmm.. i could not online MSN while watching the drama was because the computer is a little old and lagging every time i was to MSN. sorry for the MIA orh..

lastly, update about my room.. haha.. think it will take 1 month for me to finish tidying up because i really really really can't bear to throw away some of my things. things that others think is redundant.. but to me is not.. haha.. but.. it is 4 over 10 done.. i can picture my room being tidied~~~ hahahah...

hmm. that's about it. introducing a song which i had been hearing of late..

js -爱情背包客

还来不及整理行李
我已经调整好心情
向下一个目标前进

寄了张明信片给你
告诉你我已下定决心
和我自己去旅行

手机不再为谁而开机
每个呼吸只为自己

今天我在巴黎
或许明天要去东京
没什么道理
不愿再去猜想
你的心情下雨或天晴
浪费我的生命

车窗外的风景
像是快闪过的爱情
我庆幸我自己
已经忘了你
虽然偶尔会想起

想带走的总来不及
想丢弃的却太过可惜
回忆是我唯一行李

爱就像背包客的日记
过程永远最不可思议

今天我在巴黎
或许明天要去东京
没什么道理
不愿再去猜想
你的心情下雨或天晴
浪费我的生命

车窗外的风景
像是快闪过的爱情
我庆幸我自己
已经忘了你
虽然偶尔会想起

有时一个人的风景
虽然很美却很空虚
自由变得失去意义
忽然发现你
对我不是多余
两个人不完美
是我一个人心碎

今天我在巴黎
忽然觉得很想见你
hoo...
不得不去猜想
你的心情下雨或天晴
yeah...

车窗外的风景
像是快闪过的爱情
我怀疑我自己
所谓忘了你
只是在催眠自己

signing out... 9.40am

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

hello!! =)

am currently at the kindergarten having my lunch break. the H1N1 is getting a little troublesome here in Singapore. so now that the school holidays are over, schools had started to stepped up their prevention measures. likewise, here in the kindergarten, teachers are required to take their temperature and i have to clean the mouse and keyboards after each lesson with dettol solution.

but it's alright. as long as everyone are safe and healthy. hope some fast and effective medicine will be out soon to stop this H1N1. because, i really plan to find peiying end of the year or early next year. so in the meantime, i will need to save, save and save!! haha..

-updates-

today morning started off well. hmm.. rather well. i woke up really early this morning. around 5am due to nervousness as well as a tummy ache. nervousness.. cos today is my first day for the new semester at the kindergarten. kinda worried i will be late.. so didn't really slept well.. haha..

anyway, today is a happy day because i finished watching the korean drama - My Girl. though it was shown a few years ago but i only watched it recently after catching a few episodes which were played on channel U now. is quite a comical romantic drama. comical in the beginning, sadness and romance at the ending. i will say it is a nice drama and a short one too. only 16 episodes. unlike the one that i just finished watching a few days before "My Girl" which was 172 episodes. yeah.. if u dun see me online.. it could be cause i was busy watching dramas. totally addicted to it.. =p suddenly i wished that i could just stay home often and go out to work only when i feel like. as for study...... can i just take a full 1 month break before going back to it? haha.. seems a lil greedy.

i am still in the progress of tidying my room. progress report: three tenth. ^_^ improvement right? haha.. i seems to just packed all the stuffs properly and not throw stuffs. cos most of them are like hard work or memories to me.. really really 不舍得!! some poly notes, seconday exercises and childhood stuffs. btw, letters that were written by you guys.. e.g., yvonne... i still have all of them. even birthday cards sent to me, i still kept them too! haha.. i shall find one day and start reading all of them again =)

starting from this week, am gonna be slightly busy. work at the kindergarten had started. from tml, will start giving tuition again. kumon had already started as well... etc etc etc... zzz..

BUT! i will try to be strong cos the road is gonna be tougher from today onwards and i hope, i will be given more courage to go through the obstacles infront. Aja! Fighting! (learn from korean drama =p)

-lunch time!!!-

signing out... 12.00pm