if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Friday, July 18, 2008

supreme court

yesterday i went to supreme court with the gals. =) jocelyn, daphne, diana and kaiting. (sad amber couldn't make it.. amber, next week must meet up before u fly off!! else i take hammer to hammer you.. haha.. kidding..) it felt like some school excursion just that most of the people in the tour group were mainly much older adults. in my opinon, the old supreme court has a very british feeling while the new supreme court feels more like some science technology center with their new infrastructure. we gotta experience what izzit like to be the accused. saw the cells that they lived in. how they were brought into court and to the accused stand. had some history lesson and learnt that the spelling for serangoon and tampines were spelt differently last time. overall, the tour was enriching and fun. like the historical feel of the old supreme court, felt like italy and rome. as for the new supreme court, i like the modern infrastructure. the feeling of up to date. =)

feeling green with envy to those that are going overseas.. i wish i can go!! pack me in ur luggage!! haha.. well.. hope everyone have fun during their trip, play hard and takecare during the trip. =) souveniers, souveniers, souveniers. haha.. kidding. takecare..

signing out... 12.56pm

Thursday, July 17, 2008

somehow, everything just seem so wrong today.

i was late for work ain't because i woke up late but there was no transport. yup. usually i will grab a cab from the station that is nearest to the place i am working at to save time and money. because i have to wear slightly formal with heels. yup.. definitely save some time walking over. as usual, i alighted the train and headed to the taxi stand. to my horror, instead of several cabs waiting for a passenger it is the other way round. several passengers waiting for a cab. thus, i was late. =(

apologetic to the kids. sorry.. today is a special day for the kids.. is stickers day!! yup.. they are excited so am i.. haha.. but.. despite my greatest effort to get them to listen, they just love to be the teacher and speak while i speak.. hmm.. am actually quite sad and my heart really hurts whenever i had to be fierce and ask them not to shout, get out of their chair or speak when i speak else no stickers or a sad face will be given which means no stickers. sad why can't i handle it in a better way whereby i dun have to "threaten" them with no stickers if you are notti but some other way. still, i wun give up. i will try to catch their attention next week. was never angry with them.. cos they are all so adorable.. even the most mischievous have their adorable side. *grin =)

went to the library with jocelyn to search for some presentation materials. was really tired.. kinda expected i wun make it for class later. indeed. i kept dozing off. guess all my energy was used up on the children.. plus, i dun understand the lecture.. lots of reading.. engine still re-booting. but keeping my cool. dun stress dun stress. this is the best survival method.

lastly, i can't truthfully describe myself. i know i am sensitive, at times i can detect a change in mood. but many of a times, i seems to be oversensitive. no matter what. i know myself. i would not want to see anyone unhappy. only when everyone around me is happy will i be happy.

just for this 1 year. after this year, i will start working officially. then, i will bring you and aunty and uncles out for holiday. determined.

i know i will pull through any hurdles because i am blessed with each and everyone of you. thank you.

signing out... 2.25am

Monday, July 14, 2008

okay. i had been really really ultimately lazy this whole week. plus. i had been thinking and wanting supper and supper and supper non stop!! this really spells trouble.. =( and =p

hmm.. school had started. but. my engine is still not on. hang while rebooting.. which is quite a sad thing with the first presentation coming up in 2 weeks time. as well as an essay write up following closely behind. pray my engine get started soon.. sigh..

wedding bells is ringing in the air.. yup. *joyous occasion*

will be attending a secondary school classmate's wedding end of the month as well as a poly classmate somewhere during october. =) i love to attend wedding.. well.. putting aside the money that i will spend.. haha.. wedding is a joyful occasion. you can feel the romance in the air and start wondering what will yours be few years down the road. take the chance to catch up with some classmates and get to envy the gown that the bride had. sigh.. i just love to attend the wedding. is nice to have a feel of the ambience then.. =) *oh no. i am starting to daydream again.. =p

slack the whole afternoon today. met daphne for kickboxing in the evening. seems like i am getting old. *geez. but it always feel so great after exercising. =) had a great dinner today.. my mummy, the chef for the day cooked.... CRAB!! yeah!! dun remember when was the last time i had crab. i think is many years back. maybe more than 5 years. gee.. what i love most. the bun that comes together with the crab dish that was ordered. yuppy!! i love to dip the bun into the sauce and..... delicious!! haha.. but one thing about eating crab.. am quite reluctant to peel the crab because it will get all messy during dinner. =p

okay.. shall stop her for now.. if i ain't lazy (which i think i am), i will update now and then.. haha..

thank you mummy for taking the trouble to cook!! *hugx*

signing out... 11.58pm

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

preschoolers... horrendous, adorable... sigh.. =p

okokie.. just a quick entry..

school was quite okay.. though i had the tendency to fall asleep but but but.... i resisted from that temptation!! yup.. ain't sure how long can i hold on though. haha..

am now having break before the 3rd class come in for computer lesson. yup. i am teaching pre-schoolers kid's computer software for their assignment today.. the first class was... how shld i describe. horrendous! they are very much behind time for the past few lessons and today is just the same. basically, they are cute (yes), adorable (yes), naive (yes) BUT! talkative, mischievous and simply just refuse to listen to me before getting their itchy hands on the keyboard.. but well........ IT'S OKAY! because they are just simply adorable that i will just close one eye and, help them do their assignment instead. sigh..

haha.. but, is fun teaching them. they will ask the funniest questions. sometimes they are even more blur than i do..

okay.. i shall get ready for the next class.. pray that it will be better. tata! =)

signing out... 12.58pm

Monday, July 07, 2008

shopping before school reopen

today is a really tiring day. went out early in the morning to school to look for teacher ai ni regarding the supervisor issue. met up with jocelyn at city hall to have lunch and shopping for gift. yup. thanks to jocelyn and daphne.. =)

think i am getting older. haha.. only have stamina in the morning. after a couple of hours of shopping, got tired and engine was suddenly switched off.. haha.. really lousy.. =p

had dinner and arcade again before going home..

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overall, today was quite a pleasant day.. a nice outing before school starts proper tml. still ain't in a study mode.. well, do hope i will get in the mood soon. =p

jiayou bah.. =)

signing out... 11.00pm

Friday, July 04, 2008

updates - results..

monday was a day that i will always remember. i suppose is one in a lifetime event. in the morning, i went to the Singapore Flyer with daddy. he had 2 tickets and he brought me for the ride. =) had popeyes. first time trying it. had good feedbacks, as well as bad. personally, i think it was quite unique. the bread like biscuit. chicken, i prefer KFC. haha.. but i like the fries. nice. overall, i think it wasn't a bad try. back to the flyer. it was about 30mins ride. it was really really slow thus you can't really feel it is moving.. the view was okay. i suppose it would be better if all the construction wasn't there.. plus, if is at night, with fireworks.. fabulous!! haha.. i am day dreaming again.. but then again, personally i feel it is quite costly if i have to squeeze with 24 other people.. i suppose i will have to reconsider again.. nonetheless, the experience was a pleasant and happy one. thank you daddy!! hugx!! =)

after the ride, i got to drive home. something quite dangerous, but hilarious happened.. i'll just keep this to myself now.. but...... i realised, i love to drive.. maybe not always.. but.. like the feeling of being behind the wheels. now. haha.. got home, slack awhile and chatted with mummy before heading out again..

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tuesday.. sigh.. i received my results. so near yet so far. just one more grade and i will make the mark. upset........

well.. what upset me the most is.. i wasted mummy's money by taking another module. it just wasn't my standard.. i know i did try my best.. but it was a pity the module was too tough for my understanding..

had my first tuition lesson with a P2 kid. lucky for me, the child is very obedient (so far).. so i suppose it should be quite okay in terms of handling.. =)

wednesday morning. was almost late for work.. because of my denial to wake up to the fact that results were out and finalized. the kids were rather notti today. i am pretty sure they were doing it purposely. but well.. that is what get you on your nerve and makes them adorable. i shall do better next week.. maybe they will start to listen to me.. jiayou!!

went to school in the evening for my 4th year briefing. was down.. just didn't had the mood to listen.. anxiety hadn't got into me yet.. feeling rather cool about it.. but it is still too early to say.. cos i will most probably be stress up soon after..

thursday.. today i was in the mood of clearing some stuffs. so i decided to throw away some notes and pack my room. once again, only 5% completed.. maybe i shall throw away more stuffs later when i wake up. hope i will be in the mood. haha.. i tend to keep stuffs that were quite old.. because it brings many good memories.. like the kiddy cosmetic box that i used to keep all my hair accessories when i was young.. though it seems old and a little faulty.. but it had memories that i want to keep. so in the end.. it was left behind at home instead of going into the bin.. =)

had dinner out today.. =)

hmm.. i had soon got over the results now.. with the help of friends and people around.. thank you..

i want to look forward to the new phase in school. to try and do my best..

jiayou my friends.. let's have fun during the 4th year.. our final year together..

signing out... 4.30am