if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Friday, February 23, 2007

i am back..

i am back!! yeah.. haha.. past few weeks was ARGHZ!! with all the assignments waiting to be handed in and exams right after that.. totally no time to breathe at all. hmmm. well maybe there is. a little. haha.. well.. i feel my school life works this way. during semester period - 4 mths. everything during that 4 mths is nothing but study, assignments and exams. besides that, one cannot think about anything else. sometimes not even bf (he wants me to work hard lahz.. haha. *blush) thus.. when exactly is a time to breathe. it is when i am having my 1 week holiday after exams (if one is lucky, it will be 2 weeks). right after the pathetic holiday, it is back to school AGAIN!! so.... you know.. you see... *lame

been a week since exams are over.. now having my holiday. i named it as my ultimate holiday!! yeah!! next semester gonna be a rather hard semester.. i can picture myself enclose at home and studying. because i am a slow learner. so if others are to study one day before, i have to study 2 days before. *say only. yup. so.. please forgive me if i never contact u all okie.. i never forget you all de!! haha.. *rou ma sia..

anyway, lately i have been watching hua yang shao nian shao nu - hanakimi - 花樣少年少女. its a very very nice show orhz.. i like ella even more le.. she is really cool and shuai girl. haha.. yeah.. on top of that, the songs in the show are rather nice as well.. the actors are also very shuai orhz.. but, the point is, even my mummy also feel it is a funny show. so asking my mummy to join in and watch with me is good because this give me the chance to watch as well. wahahha..

next is, i feel i am actually stuck in a stage call the identity vs identity confusion stage. haha.. hmm... suddenly i wish i ain't 22 this year.. Zzzz... though people still tend to call me 16 yrs old kid =.="" but, the year one is born CANNOT be altered. hmmm.. should say. can never be altered. anyway, i decided. i dun care people say i act cute or wat so ever.i must try to find my identity. be myself. and dun avoid things. jiayou jiayou!!!

haix.suddenly no energy after saying so much.. :p

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Funny notion

Recently, i have this funny notion going over in my head. "if u can't be happy, at least dun be sad." Likewise, if u can't let people smile, at least dun let them be sad. For e.g.: if u can't say something to make them happy, at least dun say something that they will be sad. think of something neutral to say.

had been having lots of these weird thinkings lately. maybe due to stress? (easily stressed up person.) a couple of matters got me thinking lately. i'm a person that thinks too simplicitically. Taking things on the surface and as if everythings is wonderful. I stepped into my course with the understanding that one have to get a masters before becoming a psychologist. but i did not think that not all could get into the next level. its not about paying the school fees or searching for a school and... ta-da. you are enrolled into the course. is far more than that.

i'm blessed with many good and helpful frens and family. but i need to be blessed with more intelligence. i just hope to be dependent and find my unique self.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

what's the problem?!

assignments and tests are officially over. the next big thing will be EXAMS!! did i mention in my previous entry? the exam dates are officially set and i will be having 2 papers on the first day. so it shall be wrecking of brain from 9am till 4pm. Zzz.... maybe the thing to be joyful about is, everything shall end before chinese new year.. soooo... it ain't that bad afterall. :)

now is officially 12 midnight.

yesterday was a frustrating day. everything seems okie in the morning. but i dunno why after lunch. i just feel very sianz and frustrated about everything. was rather short-tempered and just feel like sleeping. i suppose to avoid the yucky feeling, sleep is the best remedy. everyone went out in the afternoon. my mum, my brother and my dad. luckily my dad was home at night. else i think i will just sleep all the way through till the next morning.

hmmm.. dun feel like typing anymore. totally moodless.. hope i will be better else.. my exams gonna be gone case once again.

it is 5 mins after midnight.