if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Monday, July 15, 2013

Looking for a meaning in life

Hello!!

Is the beginning of the 3rd week , term 3. Time really flies. One moment it was june holiday, the next it is the beginning of the term 3 and now, it is already the third week. *big sigh.

I can't seems to complete my to do tasks everyday. It had always been like this and I will make time to go back on a Sunday just to finish as much as possible. But I had stopped doing it since the june holiday. I need that Sunday for myself and my family...

It had been 3 weeks since I started spending Sunday morning with my mum by having breakfast together and window shopping at the mall near my house. Ntuc is one of the places we would go. Though I ain't and can't cook, but we will usually talk about how fresh the fish are or which vegetables are nice that day. My mum called me training to be auntie. Ha..

I think is normal for me to be called an auntie soon. Though I dun feel like one. Haha. Recently I had a short conversation with my friend Desmond. When he asked me how I am, my reply was, as busy and getting older. But his reply was, that is weird. Why he felt like he is getting younger. I laughed at his reply and somehow felt inspired. Actually I am not that old. I know I dun feel old.in fact still as childish and ever day dreaming so why do I want to claim that I am old. Is just the biological age that is increasing but the mental age is definitely not that old yet...

So I decided. Instead of feeling old everyday. I should spend more energy in appreciating what I am having now. Even though that includes my childish thoughts and actions (towards my parents).

I hope that I can appreciate and enjoy every moment of my life and time with the people around me. Not forgetting the good memories I ever had as well as the friends who had ever played an important role to me. Also want to keep learning to be a better person and a happier, stronger person too..

Ain't I greedy? Haha..

Goodnight~ 안녕히 주무세요!

Signing out... 0019 (Monday)