if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

story / 2nd week at work

story:

she thought that she would try her best to be positive. because complaining sounds so weak. she decided not to be weak and even if there's complain she will just swallow it. but she is just so .....

she thought that everything would be okay. however, she was proven wrong. she went home one day and the first thing she did was cry. hiding in her room crying and then walking out with nothing left in her mind.

she had been dreaming since she was born. and she continued to be dreaming.. she still holds a dream that seems so far away. like the sand in the hour glass that is slipping away which will be empty one day.

solution. stand on the spot and wait.

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today's work. what should i say...

everything seems okay.

yeah it was okay.

the hype at work. is how to celebrate the upcoming teacher's day celebration. the usual routine was, to have a good meal at some restaurant. but this year, they decided to go for a short getaway! ^^ although they are required to contribute to part of the trip.. but they had been trying to reduce the amount of contribution as much as possible.. and i think they did.. a bit. =)

yup. the principal asked me to go back and consider.. the teachers started asking me whether i will be going. especially the cleaner aunty. she is super excited when i said the principal did asked me to consider - which she takes it i will be able to go.. =) so teachers were discussing much last week however, i wasn't included, more like i didn't include myself cos the principal said she will check with me if i can go.... (sponsored) then come friday... everyone was photocopying their passport but i didn't bring mine though i heard them saying. then the principal suddenly asked for mine when no one told me....

but it's alright. principal was kind. asked me to bring on my next working day.. however, i forgotten =p

but it's okay. cos principal said she was sorry that she do not know whether i can go. as the head said i can't and that she will ask and sms me again..

so i am okay. next came the teacher organiser dealing with the planning. she came over and said "darling, would you like to come for the trip. however, u will have to pay the full amount cos you are not sponsored" my answer. oh. how much will it be. " hmm.. it depends. should range around 500 - 600+" my answer, i see.. could i consider and let you know again.

that ends it.

the principal did not come back to me. think she dun have to either. since it was less than 2 hours when teacher organiser come find me.

cleaner aunty said "forget it. not worth going"

my thought. *blank* but i wun be going.

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another interesting thing today.

today i did a relief for a chinese teacher. a solid 4 hour teaching with the nursery student. i would say i did well.. at least i wasn't shivering or a slightest bit of nervous teaching. =) *kudos to myself*

the past 2 days. my throat hurts real lot. to a point i actually lost my voice.

so after today's teaching. i went straight to the doctor cos i can barely hear my voice. not to mention i was turning feverish. doctor says: " 2 days mc. no talking." (same as the prev trip to the doctor).

am still considering whether to take mc for tml. cos i dun think i will get paid if i take mc. *clause ain't clear* and! i dunno whether i can claim my medical fees.. =(

cancelled tuition today hoping for miracle to happen tml.. =)

okay. that's all for now.

interesting day it had been..

i miss my children. they are my motivators..

signing out... 8.48pm