if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Friday, July 02, 2010

and i thought it was....

getting better this morning...

i met ben and grace this morning for breakfast whereby darius join us shortly after... is the first time i met ben since i dunno when. 1 year? 1 1/2 year? anyway, it was really great to see him. great to see darius. and great to see grace.. all the good memories that i had during my sec & poly school years with them came rushing back to me.
this made me happy.

although ben is gonna be back for a short time before i dunno when i will be seeing him again. but i am glad he is back and that cos of him, i get to meet darius and grace so soon once again. for the first time since this week? i am happy

however, things didn't quite last during dinner. i had a headache all of a sudden. but i am glad that i actually pull through the night till i got home. cos, it ain't easy to stay in touch with friends after everyone starts to get busy with life like work. so, to be able to have such a chance. i should learn how to treasure. although, i know i am a boring person as well as a spoilsport to not stay out late or wanting to club etc... i am really sorry. but i just really prefer to be home earlier and not interested to go to clubs. though i ever once wonder what it was like. but no longer now. it doesn't matter to me. maybe is the beginning of my boring life.

but. i suppose this is just me. for now.

to friends who are worried of my odd behaviour.... sorry to let ya be worried for me... this is just a transition period. a roadblock that i must try to overcome and i play a hugh role in it. i dunno how to say and what to say most of the time now. but i believe i will be okay.

on a happy note, ever since i watched Nodame Cantabile - the final score (movie), I had started to want to learn a musical instrument. maybe from where i stopped when i was much younger - piano. recently, i had also started / finished the drama serial of Nodame. now, looking forward to Nodame Cantabile - the finale (17th July 2010) i think i am so going to miss the show after the end of all the filiming.. =/ =]

goodnight~

sigining out... 11.59pm