if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

life is not a bed of roses

*thinking* can life be easy on a bed of roses with thorns?

life isn't a bed of roses. at least for me.

yesterday, i was feeling lousy. it has got nothing to do with anyone. but just me thinking too much (others wld say..)

i had always felt that i am a sensible person. but being sensible might had led me to being stubborn. ever since i started my first job after o-levels, i had started to have a habit to use whatever i earned. even during poly, despite having attachment which is 5 days a week, i still insist on working my part-time during weekend. only during first year in uni whereby i did not work, did i used whatever my parents gave.

even though i ain't holding a full time. but am working really hard in the various part-time. i am not like those gals in dramas with strong character who worked cos the family is poor. i think my family is okay. but my stubborn character insist of not taking my parent's money even if i earned very little, unless, i really can't hold on. cos i think is like a burden to them if they have to work for the sake of money (of course, tat might nt be wat they are thinking).

i dun think i am stingy or what, and i admit i spend alot (maybe not as much as those rich gals) until the moment i realised i had not enough for the rest of the month.. until i have to calculate whether i can afford to go out or not.

anyway, this just got me thinking and i finally rationalized. not everyone can understand me. neither can i understand anyone truly. not everyone goes through what i go through neither do everyone have the character and belief which i have. so, it really doesn't matter how the situation is going to be. as long as i hold on to what i belief and hope that understanding will be gained.

lx fighting~

signing out... 11.58am