if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

happenings..

exam results are out. disappointed. totally. spent the whole of yesterday nursing my emotions.

here's what happened yesterday.

lately had been feeling moody. but yesterday morning was the first time i smiled and felt happy since a couple of days ago. met daddy for lunch. he brought me to ikea at tampines for lunch as well as to walk around. i had never been to the ikea @ tampines. thus i really felt excited and impressed with how big it was. too bad. time do not permit me to walk around GIANT. lunch - i had poached salmon set. suddenly, a gushed of feelings start to come back. the feeling that i had when i was much younger. when daddy and mummy would bring me and brother to ikea @ alexandra for dinner and we would always order salmon. that's the time whereby we got addicted and developed a love for salmon. even until now.. daddy is the only person that dote me the most. ever since i was young. to a certain extent, mummy will think that daddy dun dote brother. but is not true. he dote brother too.. so after a quick walk around, i drove back home. yeah.. i got to drove back and fro. falling in love with driving. except that i had to be familiar with the roads which i truly sucks at. do hope i can drive again soon. on second thots, not too often else i might feel it is tiring. =p

had tuition with bernice in the evening. bernice just love to argue with me. even when i was 200% confident that she got the problem wrong. she will still want to fight her way through and smile cheekily when she realised she was wrong. *grabbing hair* she just "love" to argue with me! i must had been too friendly with her. Zzzz... =/

after tuition, i walked about to look for a birthday cake for my brother. aint sure why. but my emotions automatically switched to upset after the tuition. once i am home, i went to check my grades. here is where the big surprise came in. wun go into details...

today, i went to work at the kindergarten. got to take another few more pictures of the cute lil ones. but i had problem with my second class. in fact i always had problem with all the classes. but it was the second class (k2) that got me stunned, not knowing what to do and whether should i cry or laugh. so this was what happened... the k2 came in and while i was busy saving the k1's work, some of the lil ones was telling me something about someone crying. i was too engrossed thus i could not make out what exactly were they saying. all i heard was 1 was crying now 2 then 3 now 4 of them were crying. *shrug. still dun understood. until i heard a sudden loud wail. then i realised javier crying. omg! i had a hard time trying to stop them from crying and understand what they were saying in between their sobx. a lil background of this class. javier and rishon. they are the loud hailers in my class. javier is especially childish but it is OKAY as he is still just a lil boy. but sometimes it is just too hard to understand why is he sooooooo petty. but anyway, he cried the hardest, followed by rishon and another boy (whom i think he cried in a funny way. even dillon - my another fav kid also think so), lastly it was a girl. so apparently, 3 boys and 1 girl were crying and the rest were either like.. arghz.. can they stop! it is so noisy. else they will be laughing or having the 哭笑不得 look on their face. same as me. =.= overall, it was quite an experience. these kids of mine. are just so adorable despite using half my packet of tissue (kidding). just can't help but adore them more and more.. =) btw, david (my tuition kid) is getting more and more obedient. am so glad. *phew.

lastly, there will have to be major changes in my life after this exam. sigh. do hope that i am given strength and determination.

signing out...11.59pm