if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Friday, October 31, 2008

demoralized...................gambatek

it had been a busy time last week. i had work on tue, wed and thu. oh. btw, i am having holidays. but. this week is the last week.. =( hmm.. so where shall i start. basically, my holiday had been quite long. about a mth if i am not wrong. first 2.5 weeks was extra presentation courtesy of my supervisor. ongoing was the preparation of my thesis proposal handout. so my holiday was basically time for me to do stuffs that was supposed to be done during school term.. since last week i was working.. especially wed which was a long long day... 9am - 11pm. i only left with this week to finish up my critique assignment which is very difficult though it only worth 5%.

hmm. my thots are in a mess. back to last week. so i had a part time job introduce by ben (was ben's fren actually), it was at a floating platform. the one at marina square.. it was an event show that ITB organized for different countries tourism organizations representatives to showcase Singapore. i suppose this is to bring in more tourist from their individual countries etc. it was a buffet kind of dinner in which there are other entertainments such as an area for casino activities, local activities like henna (dunno hw to spell), spinning the malay tops etc... lucky i had soo fen and kaiting to accompany me. so i wasn't really bored. but the long standing during the event was actually killing my feet. overall, i had a good experience. having to see the VIPs, the way they talk, present themselves which kinda ignited a part of me. the real adult life in which there will be a lot of socialization with people next time. this made me felt like a kid and i am really still a student.. well. still, i think i miss the airshow event more..

this week. i had been trying to get into a mood to do my critique. i suppose i am not a very determined person because whenever i do not know how to do something, i will tend to procastinate. just like now. critique is due next monday. but my progress.. - 5%. can i cough out something presentable by sunday night? i dunno. felt demoralized and upset. wishing that some0thing can make me feel motivated...

but i supposed, eventually one still have to rely on oneself...

okie. that's all.. now i am feeling better. i will blog about my kids when i finish the critique! =) jiayou jiayou gambatek!!

signing out...10.50am