if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Friday, August 01, 2008

school had been rather busy. just finish our first presentation within less than a month and we already had a presentation! i suppose this is the expectation of 4th year.

though school had been rather busy. for most, but not me. at least not really. because engine is still rather cold. well.. come to think of it, school had been busy because i am feeling rather lost during lessons and there seems to be never ending catching up to do.

work had been just as busy as well. is starting to eat up my time. especially my leisure time. and i could not decide which to give up. in fact, if i am more discipline, i will be able to manage and juggle things on hand. any time management manager? haha. kidding. well.. no worries (now). i will survive.

ever since i was in sec school, i always wanted to go overseas. at least for a period of time. to experience the life, the culture, the season. maybe i read too many boarding school books when i was a little kid. thus, i had dreams of going to some boarding school. or at least study and stay in some hostel or rented apartment. experience a different kind of life. =)

looking at the pictures we took at the supreme court i realised how much i had aged. sad. indeed, i can't turn back the time. i can't turn back the time i had in secondary school, in poly and after poly. the thing that sadden me most is i can't find my goal. i used to had strong goals and it got lost someway. BUT. it doesn't matter. it means i had grown up and i will be having a different goals as compared to years back. =) i dun deny i do not have a specific and strong goal at the moment. not one that truly comes from the heart only those that seems like - no choice, that's your goal. for school, it felt like, no choice. your duty to do well. for work, no choice, for the cash (thinking back what a jnr used to say, work is for money) and it is actually quite tiring and non-motivational. no wonder they say money is not exactly a good motivational factor in fact it contributes to the dissatisfaction in working for individuals. anyway, no worries. not pessimistic about it. in fact, i am thinking, my brain is working. =)

lastly, before ending the entry.. some good news to share. one of my student - Bernice, scored the highest in class for her english test. though she attribute it to me, saying i helped her improved in her grammer etc, i truly do not think i contribute anything much cos i am not good myself =), besides.. i only taught her for a month. so Bernice, it was all your effort. congrats to you ^_^ jiayou!!

to all the nerds, non-nerds, upcoming nerds, friends and gals, strive hard in your goals, stay happy, positive and thanks for always being there for me in good and bad times. lots of thanks to jocelyn and daphne for that day and every other days too. *hugx*

p.s: celeste, please do do do contact me when you are back! i wanna have lunch with you.. after next wednesday's essay okie..

oh ya oh ya!! very very last sentence. i bought my "sky of love" cd!!!! ^-^v

signing out... 11.47pm