if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Friday, May 09, 2008

is friday. time just flies. days. weeks. months. very soon i will be moving on to another phase in life.

i supposed i did quite well the past few days. mood = peaceful.

had a test this morning. it was very bad. at least to me (not comparing with others), i think i can do better. reflecting. no one to blame except myself. murder weapon: poor time management, slow reading and maybe a little procrastination (but definitely better than year 1).

i know i should not cry over spilled milk. well. at least not anymore now. instead, i hoped to finish up my last assignment fast and good (despite very little time to cough out 3000words) and move on to prepare for my exam. well.. i suppose i just wanted to drink the belgium chocolate at coffee bean. =x hmm.. this exam. is very important. i really hope to end of with good results. to make up for my 1st semester. so,

Jiayou! 加油!

well.. despite having such high morale and enthusiasm now, am sure i will forget once i logoff my blog. haha.. anywayzzzzzz.... tonight is rest day. =D

okay. before i end off..... took the train home today. the second / third time i experience the train having problem. remembered the first time was the gates at toapayoh refused to open. commuters can actually touched the gates and look at the people like they are some display figures on the other end and vice versa. today, twice the train experience some problem at bishan station. but the most classic one was, seeing a lady "flew" when the train suddenly jam break. everyone thought that the train hit something hard (cos there was a loud bang) and there was discussion whether did someone jump down the tracks again. anyway, the lady nearly landed on top of two other people but luckily a guy nearby managed to grab her hand and give her a pull before she really fall on top of them.

didn't know what to eat for dinner. decided to go home and cook something. maybe i was just too tired so was kinda clumsy and careless.. hmm..... kept dropping the utensils and such. Zzz.. wanted to go home for dinner cos it is more convenient. but in the end... it turned out to backfire. crap. really should get some rest. dislike school work!! haha..

self-reflection: i am still childish. always blurt things out that i never meant it. i cannot explain my behavior. only hope i will be pardon for my "blurness". i know i cannot keep asking people to understand. i have to grow up. i am a slow learner. but a hardworking one (not 100%. but willing to). -end of reflection-

hmm... finding an identity. ain't defending. so stop saying that. ain't angry. just sorry not being able to help. still coping. a slow learner. after so many years. felt everything is further and further away. welcome to reality. that no one can understand each other. no matter how hard one tries. needs a rest. just talking nonsense again.

signing out... 9.57pm