if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

nostalgia

it was a rainy morning on friday. the rain was really heavy. like it would never stop pouring. got up for class and the first thing was to be sandwiched between them.. *helpless. the floor was slippery. especially when the sole was wearing off.. thus i was glad that by the time i got off the train, the rain had stopped.

was in a daze during lunch. just simply lost in my own world. ain't any idea what is happening around me, what were the rest talking about. *sorry amber, jocelyn and kaiting.

after lunch, headed back for dental appointment. as i was too early, i decided to go to popular bookstore to get some stickers for david and stationaries for myself. it was only once in awhile would i then walk all the way to jubilee. the feeling seems so.... familiar. spend almost 3 years plus at the bookstore. seems like another home of mine during the weekends. suddenly missed my boss. the times that she would reprimand me for being blur and slow, the times whereby i have to run to work in the morning for fear that boss will scold me for being late (haha..), saturday nights, sunday morning.. that was my routine then.. it was good times..

some of the shops had thus change ownership while some decided to stop their rental. the cinema is still there, but the ticketing counter is quieter then ever. wonder how many people still patronized the cinema there. maybe i should. one day.

got my stuffs from popular. still early. went around exploring. recollecting the times. wondered if the arcade still exists. decided to check it out. was surprised and glad that it does. though they change some of the games station's position.

well, basically, the whole building seems rather deserted. wondered if they will tear it down. do hope they dun. cos it contains my memories.

saturday, weekend dun feel like weekends. as in, nothing special. saturday is usually burnt. wanted to go to my favourite hideout. but was too tired. headed home early. haven't been online for some time. decided maybe i should just go in, say hi and ask how are some of my friends. but, i suppose it was a wrong choice. yesterday was really not my day. felt everything was wrong. at least whatever i said seems so wrong. sorry to all that talked to me yesterday. am really *sorry*.

maybe everyone was right. i dunno how blessed i was. dunno how to appreciate. got quite frustrated halfway through the conversation. cos i just felt, who are you to say i do not appreciate when you do not even know me well or what is happening everyday to me. i know i took it too hard. so here i am, apologising. maybe everyone was right. i was the one wrong. all along.

sunday. everyone was out as usual.. busy with work and own events. watched anime while having brunch. thought back about how i used to watch anime during my fypj. everyone thot i was working hard on my project behind the stack of books. but, nah. haha. remembered how i would adjust the screen small and hide it at one corner for fear that lecturers would come in to spot check. fypj was one of my best time and my most memorable time. had dinner out with my brother and daddy. i was to drive today. but i supposed i wasn't in a mood for driving, thus i decided i shall let my brother do the driving instead. watched death note 2 and now, blogging.

hmm.. that is all for now..

my life is boring. isn't it?

signing out... 11.54pm