if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

today is mummy's birthday. bought her a bouquet of roses while my brother bought her a cake. hehe.. went to amk hub fish and co for lunch. mummy's treat!! yeah.. but the air con was just way too cold that my pasta turn cold in a short while which made it rather awful to eat.. =.=

spent the whole afternoon helping a friend do some research. yeah.. "studying" during the holiday. haha.. is volunteering though. who to blame? myself. haha..

later part in the night, i tagged along my brother on his way back to camp. so as to get to drive my daddy's car. yup. drove all the way from jurong and back home. got scolded by my daddy all the way because i made a very very dangerous U turn on the way back (nearly hit a car - my dad says. but of course i deny =.= ) and many other small little mistakes. gee. *ashamed. well.... i seldom really get to drive despite holding my license for some time? thus, i drove badly.... hmm.. anyway.. i know is an excuse. i have the responsibility to be careful. sorry daddy.. i will do better the next round..

then after, met my kiddy neighbour for dinner and talked to my mummy about certain stuffs when i got home. mummy sorry.. *you know why...* for making you upset during your birthday. sigh.. sorrieee...

lastly, seems that there's quite a couple of sad moments today. both my mummy and daddy thinks i am naive. while my brother think i am rather dumb i supposed. as for naive part, that is the only thing together both of them will agreed on. is not i want to be naive. but i just want to open up the doors for more probabilities. probabilities that others might not realised? spare me from knowing right and wrong. hmm.. i dunno how to express what i trying to say. *complex me. one thing i learnt is to be contented. as long as there is peace among. i am contented. as for why my brother think i am dumb is more of a he gave me this feeling when i asked certain questions that he felt the only reply he could give is a "duh" but i will be like.. what "duh". and he would say.. it is so logical. not much of an explanation.. at times he will ask me to figure out on my own. but most of the time he will be real kind to explain to me briefly. *smile.

well, i dun deny i can be naive and dumb at times, most of the times (whatever). maybe that is why i treat others as friends even if others might not sees the same. izzit really a big problem to do so? personally, i not too sure. but logically it seems that way. i have yet to up my level to spotting the type / kind of people (one day circumstances might ask me to). therefore, all whom i know (even if there are only minimal talking) is considered as a friend. just a matter of diff closeness - normal, good, close, special etc.. they are not "passerby". arghz.. i am getting very long-winded (stop!). hmm.. in conclusion, i still have a lot to learn. but i am lucky to have lots of people around me that never fail to offer me help. =) i will work hard.

ok. next. what am i going to do tml... continue with the research in the morning. working at kumon from noon till night. so will be rather busy with the notti kids. more of a mischievous kids.. have to sleep early because gotta reach tanah merah for the airshow job by 6.45AM. yup. and latest update, jocelyn said she was not feeling sianz ("gua gua") on saturday. instead she was feeling very very very pissed off with the shuttle bus for being 1.5 hrs late to and fro.. which total up to be about 3hrs of bus waiting time? and she wondered why wasn't i angry. haha.. well, tink i felt more of a guilty for making my daddy rush. toopid bus. =p

think that's all for today.

signing off... 11.59pm