if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Monday, November 05, 2007

back with more =( things

Been sometime since i last blog. was really busy the last few weeks of september as well as october. getting ready for assignments, presentation and exams.

Just started class last week after a short one week holiday. the one week holiday ended well despite the rough times during the beginning of the holiday. Am grateful for the past few weeks of blissfulness + happiness.. =) (but i screwed it up recently.. sigh..)

did something silly again. yeah. is a once again. though many say i think alot. but yet the contradicting part is why all the mistakes i do shows that i didn't think about it beforehand. sometimes i think i am either nt aware of what is happening (inexperience) or i am just purely... i dunno what to describe.

that day, one of the tutor said that the special trait i had is actually nt very suitable in the line of my course. was rather upset. is the 2nd person who said that. i started to wonder is my character an advantage or is it really more of a disadvantage in this real world. maybe the solution is balancing the trait. maybe i haven't learn how to manage my life. thus, is kind of in a turmoil and i am affecting the people around me.

well.. i am still learning. i dunno how long anyone could wait for me to learn. i always just wish for a chance to succeed and to show that i am learning and i had change. i will still keep trying and fight for a chance. because the last thing i want is to regret.

maybe what happened on sunday might sounds like excuses. but i am one that do not planned. especially if i know it will lead to a bad ending. i am so honest and truthful that people tend to worry for me. hmm.. dunno what i talking already. in conclusion, i do not have concrete explanation as to why i forgotten. but i will not forget about it ever again..