if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Monday, August 27, 2007

a happier me from today onwards

morning didnt turn out well for me. it was gloomy at first and soon after, it started to pour. just like how i felt inside me. but special thanks to solid 1, a documentary i watched and the sun that is out now that made me felt relaxed and much cheerful. the CNA documentary, featuring on a lady who got breast cancer, made me felt enlightened. it made me realise how lucky i am to have a normal life and that even when she is diagnosed with such a illness she was still able to pull herself up and lead a cheerful life. so why can't i? like what solid 2 says, it is all within the mind. if i feel i am happy, i would be. during this documentary i also realise that even married couples have miscommunications at times (maybe due to the differences between male and female) whereby, the wife having the cancer hope that the husband do not remain quiet and say something that could encourage her or say that he still love her, but apparently, the husband does not because he felt that he do not know which words to use so as not to make her feel worst. i do not know how they resolve the communication in the end. maybe because they try to even out each other differences? but i suppose it is because of the love that bind them together that made them walk through the difficult times. no matter what, we are all happy being. so never think we are not. if one is unhappy do not stay at that point of unhappiness. even if one have to be thick skin to ask some others to cheer u up or encourage you. do so. because at least you are trying to be happy.

i do not know how different i am going to be from today onwards. but i definitely am looking forward to a happier me. i will work to be happier =) . so people.. please give me encouragement okie.. (thick skin) or remind me of what i blog today. am sure it will help me even more.. ^-^