if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Thursday, June 28, 2007

today is a very hot day. damn. got back from ntuc more than an hour ago and i am stuck in front of my computer (which is very unlikely of me) surfing here and there. a waste of time i feel. cos i can't find what i am looking for.... love shopping at ntuc. even if i do not have anything to buy, i just simply love to push the trolley here and there. but the end result would either be, the trolley full of tidbits or i leave the supermarket with only two or three light items. which is rather embarassing. but still.. i dun care. haha. a sign of rebellious.

things aint too bad the past few days (promised to cheer up). time really do flies when i am working at kumon. cos the kids are so hyper active but adorable. haha. wanted to work at a place somewhere nearer like those educational centers at amk hub. but i will miss the kids at kumon though i only interact with them for a short period of 2 months.

cs started work on monday. yup. monday was the first day of my holiday. tried to keep myself busy. went to amber's house to bake chicken pie as well as tiramisu. hehe. the chicken pie taste quite good. except we need to brush up on the wrapping of the pie. mine looks horrible + comical.

feeling peaceful now. though the heat is killing me. so many things i feel like learning. besides learning how to control emotions. which i feel my lessons on emotions is never ending as i am too sensitive and emotional to certain stuffs which seems like nothing to others. hmm.. anyway,back to topic. wanted to learn how to cook from my uncle. but my mum said he ain't free to teach me and ask me to go sign up for courses instead. haix. both my uncles used to work in the resturant as chefs and i love the chilli crab they cook. haha. too bad.. feel like picking up piano again. the last time i stopped piano lessons from my friend was 2 years ago. reason why i stopped. cos i was having attachments from mon-fri and i was also working at the bookshop as part time. basically, i am working 7 days a week. thus, there wasn't any time to practice. what i felt guilty was, i did not tell my fren the reason and eventually, the teaching "deal" was off. it really was kinda wasted. i would often wonder why didnt i had the determination to pursue on just like i pursue my part time job. =( but anyway, that's the past. and she is going overseas for further studies soon. peiying.. sorry..

holidays are ending. left with just 3 days. haven't learn roller blading, room is still as untidy, feeling fatter than ever but yet no sign of wanting to exercise. damn.. really alot of things on hand. why izzit never ending.. arghz....

hmm.. enuff said. shall start tidying my notes and search for a new blog skin and start preparing for dinner. haha. piggy me. lastly, hope my brother is doing well at camp and that his back is not giving him much problem. i miss my brother.... and bb. =p