if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

back

i am back. could not remember when did i last blog. but jocelyn grumble nothing to read. so i am back writing. as long as you all dun feel sianz listening to me grumble. ha.

was having exams the whole of last week. the brain exam was Zzz.. felt as if studying for it and not studying for it does not makes a difference. but when i exclaimed such a sentence, vivian looked at me with a "are u sure u studied hard?" or maybe it was a "what nonsense are you talking about?" okie. now you all should know how terrible it was for me. stats exams wasn't that bad. at least the revision that my tutor gave was very useful. most of the questions that came out was rather similar. but feeling guilty because i should had make more effort to help one of my friend. but what ever said now would not help but cause more unpleasant feelings. like rubbing salt. but still, i am sorry solid 1.

lately haven't been too good. i know it is my holiday and a pathetic one week holiday. which means i start school next week. shan't go into details about why lately aint good. but i suppose cs was right. why do i make life so difficult for myself. why do i even have to be bothered about others. what others do. what others will feel. i cannot even takecare of myself. why think for others.

hmm.. anyway, it is just grumbles. a moment of weakness. after this, i wun think about anything. life will be as usual. even if it is a cycle of unhappiness, i just have to grumble it off and be happy. cos there will be many much bigger barrier in future. so all that is happening now will not put me back off. aint i positive? *grin.

ok. off to prepare for work now. congrats to my brother for going into ocs. hope he can complete the course. but no matter what, i am so proud of you bro. jiayou!! ^-^