if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

"VULNERABLE" <-- what the... !!!

today was one of the worst lesson i ever had. not because it was boring. in fact it was quite nice the first half of it because we watch a video on how a guy did profiling so as to track down a serial killer.. but the next part of the lesson just pratically su*cks..

not sure if i mentioned before. we were suppose to have a debate as part of our assignment. each group should participate at least 2 topics.. and since we have 4 grps, we will be having 4 topics.. apparently, while discussing which grp will debate which topic (we've 7 topics to choose from).. we unknowingly left out one group. so the link is... grp A, B, C, D. grp A was left out and grp B vs C, grp B vs D and grp C vs D. so grp A was completely left out.. ok. str8 to the pt. the problem was, grp A wanted to do topics that all other grps dun want to. so in the end they ended up with no opponents.. and to solve the problem.. one lady commented to scrape the topic grp B and C wanted to do. WHY? just so that each of the grp can debate with them. *did i get u all lost? anyway, both grp didn't want to because they dun see why shld we compromise them and do topics that THEY WANT to do. and not THEY who compromise US the topics WE WANT to do? and next thing i know.. the lady suggest to the teacher that she shld spread grp B and C evenly according to strength because.. it was clearly seen that grp B was the most VULNERABLE grp! okie.. now i dun get.. why did she suddenly change and say that grp B is vulnerable. just because our grp (yes u can guess.. i am talking abt my grp) dun speak out.. doesn't means we are vulnerable.. well.. i nearly forgotten one thing.. from the way i hear the lady speak.. she was as if accusing grp C for PICKING OUT on us.. because we are "vulnerable".. well well.. the first thing that came was.. are u sure it was grp C and not ur grp trying to pick out on us as well? anyway, everything ends up horribly because she got wat she want.. and she let the whole class know or maybe think that we are the "Vulnerable" group. wat the........

haix... anyway, even though i really feel like doing something so as to shut her mouth.. but somehow i just kinda fell into her trap; thinking.. is not that our group is vulnerable.. maybe i am the weakest one and i might just pull down the whole team.. is like.. sometimes u just wanna do something useful / purposeful but YET. dun have the heart, determination or what so ever to do it.. to make things work..

anyway, this year holiday is burnt. i have tons of assignments and tests (nt being pessimistic) to be finished during the christmas week.. because everything is due 1st 2 weeks of jan. and not to mention i am in my 6th week in school and nothing is done. so is 6weeks of chapters worth multiply by 3 modules.. i just simply need 48hrs a day. or if possible 2days of not falling asleep.. somehow.. i really really want to stay awake the whole night to study so that i can do well for my course.. but.. i can't.. cos i am yawning.. Zzz...