if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

today is a busy day.. started off with accompanying my mum to the market then vaccume and mop the floor.. throw the clothes into the washing machine.. tidy up the wires behind the computer.. was like doing puzzle cos it is all tangled up.. and blogging as i am installing my microsoft words etc.. haix.. my mum says i must as well stay at home and do the housework no need study.. gee.. though she was kidding. but maybe she is right.. i seems like wasting her money studying.. so... haix..

yesterday was my first and last exam paper for the semester (cos i only have 1 module). it was totally screwed up... but i admit it got screwed up because i didn't study and just enter the hall with nothing in my brain.. not even feeling any nervous.. weirdo me.. had abt 1 week to study.. drew up a plan as to what to study everyday.. in the end, the plan seems useless.. cos i did not follow it at all.. only started to get in the mood 1 night before the paper.. double haix.. but still.. its my fault..

now the next thing is to think about how am i going to celebrate my birthday.. from excited to bothered.. at first it seems like going to be fun.. but then now it seems like why am i celebrating.. it seems such a hassle to prepare everything and eventually.. it will seems like just a gathering... so what's the main purpose everyone celebrate.. hmm.. i still dunno.. but i guess i will go on with it.. cos that's what my heart say i want to though my brain says what for.. =/

school will be starting again in 2 weeks time.. want to find some part time job.. but i will be taking 3 modules out of 4 next sem.. i could not even cope with my current 1 module.. i wonder how am i going to survive with 3.. further more.. + a part time job.. but.. i need it because i really dun want to take any allowance from my parents so... haix..

think the next thing i am going to do today is tidy my room and just keep myself busy + pray hard i will pass my exam.. i dun wanna be like last time.. dun wanna fail. dun wanna just pass..