if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Looking forward

am now at work.. stress level still as high.. didn't log in msn or skype cos fear that i would just explode on anyone.. as in, i dun want to.. but sometimes is just the frustration.. exploding the frustrations that is held within seems to makes me feel better. But NO. not gonna make anyone the victim.. ha. Thus, i am looking forward to the end of the month. cos it will officially be my last day with the company and i can finally relax, do my own things. watch anime, shopping, do some exercise (cos i feel weak), meet up with all my frens.. haix.. been a long long time since i meet up with my frens.. and i would love to stay at home to accompany my family.. and last and not to be forgotten.. tidy up the room.. So i am really looking forward to ending my job with this company. But as humans are complicated beings.. therefore i predict i will feel a little weird or that sumthing is missing when i stop work.. after all, i have been working for a year already..

currently, i feel moody and sian sian.. no matter how hard ppl try to cheer me, i just simply can't cheer up. at least i haven't return back to my hyper mood.. some how weird thinkings just pops up in my mind. like is better to be a quiet person then to be a cheerful n hyper person. why? cos when a person is hyper, ppl tend to always think that the person is forever like that. so if someone is suddenly quiet, they will keep asking.. but different approaches should be use on different people. like maybe some need some peace etc.. nevertheless, even if keep questioning is not the best approach but at least, they will feel warmth and that someone still care.. hmm.. dunno what am i talking liao.. haha..

well.. i finished the "where rainbow ends" by cecelia adhern.. as mentioned previously, the story is written in dialogues. not like those normal type whereby they have an introduction, body and a conclusion.. reading it feels like u are in the picture standing one side and looking at the whole story. This book is about 2 childhood frens, Rosie and Alex that have stuck by each other through thick and thin despite being seperated when they were about to head to college. Just when Rosie decided to head down to Boston to join Alex, something drastic happened to her that change her life totally. Taking her away from Boston and keeping her in Ireland. As Rosie struggled to cope her new life and pursue her dreams she also struggled to keep away from the thoughts as to whether she and Alex are meant to be just friends. Lots of misunderstanding, sheer bad luck and circumstances kept them apart for years. But eventually, they manage to past all the hurdles and be together. once again.

Nice story.. this is more about friendship. Most of the story setting are in Dublin, Ireland because the author is from Ireland. Her book P.S i love you will be film into a movie sometime soon. The lead actress will be Hilary Swank.. looking forward.. but i need to get a box of tissue. haha..