if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Saturday, March 11, 2006

My Dream

well.. my dream for the future.. i want to study something that i have interest as well as prospect n not forgetting the dream i wish to realise..

at times i will ambition to be an actress.. why? the main reason is not because an actress is beautiful, slim etc.. [only part of the reason is] but the main reason is that an actress can act many different roles in different script.. n i think that's wat i really want.. i realise that i had many "ambitions" or should i say.. many jobs i would like to give it a try.. i wanna work as a relief teacher.. then i will somewhat experience the job of a teacher.. i wanna work as a business women.. then i will know how busy a women with a career is like.. some other jobs i would like to try includes working in a flower shop as a florist so as to learn some flower arrangement n the different flowers.. a tour guide.. so as to visit different places.. etc etc.. n one thing abt being an actress, u can experience many "lifes". one minute acting as an investigator, the other minute acting as falling in love with some "so called dream guy in the show".. ok lah.. i am more like anything except horror.. is like to me.. an actress experience many different "lifes" haha..

what i want in the future.. i just want a stable but reasonable pay.. define reasonable.. each have their own opinions. i can't really describe mine now.. coz not exactly in the adult stage.. whereby there's many things to concern like houses, own family, own leisure etc.. hmm.. well.. even sometimes i also couldn't decide what i really wants.. one minute just want sumthing stable whereby might lead to a monotonous life.. another minute want sumthing interesting n challenging.. well.. guess my conclusion is both.. i want some job that can keep me going till old.. nt worried that i might get fired or sumthing.. but on the other hand, not totally monotonous..

hmm.. basically.. i dunno what am i trying to say when i am typing this blog of mine.. maybe just suddenly feel like.. dreaming again.. haha.. well.. currently.. just hope that i can stop studying by e age of 25 n start earning money.. i wanna bring my mum to holiday.. i wanna help my dad clear his problem.. i wanna buy my brother things that he need.. wanna organise gathering for all my friends.. wanna go on a holiday with boyboy.. redang, new zealand etc.. wanna a lead a carefree life.. n be happy..