if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Friday, March 17, 2006

me n my thoughts on: frenz

Today is friday!! Finally.. keke.. looking forward to weekends.. gonna have a great time this weekend.. ^_^ just had breakfast.. shiok! i am having a real BIG appetite lately.. geez.. T.T am listening to music now.. to get myself into the mood of doing work. guess i will not msn in the morning.. maybe in the afternoon when i finish much of my work..

these whole week been a very very bad week.. i am still trying to adapt to my new life.. juggling work, family, frens and relationship. Is really not an easy task. coz been single for 20 years.. is like.. i dun even have time to do my own stuffs.. my room has been untidy since dunno when.. haven't unpack 2 boxes of stuff since is shifted in 2 years ago.. i am having a real hard time. n march is about to end.. haven't even adapt to this new life.. and i am to start adapting to another new life.. i wish i got 48 hours a day. and strength to last through 48 hours everyday..

yesterday i said sumthing that is hmm.. wrong or insensitive. is like e.g. i said i will never buy an mp3 and the next day i bought the mp3. situations similar to this. well.. just felt sorry for saying some insensitive stuffs.. i always shoot what i am thinking before even thinking whether is right to say it.. but at this current point.. friends are just as important. i haven't learn to balance my life. but if i can balance my family, friends, r/s n work.. hmm.. i dunno.. but i really hope i could. coz to me, family, friends and boy boy are all so important in different ways.. even if i am real tired or what.. i also wanna spend whatever time i have with everyone.. hmm.. izzit the thinking of a naive girl? maybe 3 yrs down the road..when i re-read what i wrote, i might just "ha. wat a stupid thought it was" hmm.. am i getting everyone that's reading my blog lost? haha..

well.. i am not an easy person to understand.. ppl have split characters. i have many many split characters. 1 min laughing, another strong, then hack care etc.. but now.. i am a hardworking person.. haha.. gonna get going with my work.. =)

until now.. i am just a naive / dreamer girl who wishes for everyone to be happy.. n myself to slim down.. wahahah...