if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Thursday, March 09, 2006

blabbering me

there's one very serious problem that i have. and that is i lack of common sense. really.. and i meant lack of. not totally no common sense.

yesterday grace n i we went to california fitness. coz we purchase a 30 bucks voucher whereby both of us are entitled to a free 1 month use of facilities... facilities such as their gym equipment, their classes, sauna etc... we even got a free body analysis. that's to measure how much fat we have under the skin which i will skip mentioning... there will also be a trainer who will guide us the usage of equipment n which r the equipment that we need to work on more to show more results blah blah blah.. well.. both of us r excited. i am. but after agreeing, i find that i just added more committments to myself.. n i am spending more money.. boy boy is right. haiz.. now i can't kick my job away neither can i stop working out.. i need 48 hours!! n the strength to last 48 hours!! but friday n sunday afternoon is a definitely rest day. a day to go out.. yes. final decision.

back to the common sense thing.. yesterday when i got home, i told cs abt it.. then he was like a lil quiet.. [gee.. i can understand..] n i dunno what got into me.. i just, keep blabbering away. though i already sense there's some problem.. n i just make things even worst coz the more the blabber away. the more trouble i got.. saying the wrong things.. n can still "laugh" away.. *rolling my eyes.. i felt so so bad.. i didnt meant to.. didnt meant to end the night with a solemn, upset feeling.. not to mention, i think i also said sumthing wrong to another friend in the afternoon. coz he didnt reply the sms then after..

i really really must be more serious in things. i am 20! soon to be 21!! n i am still fooling around. what the.. hmmm.. now listening to music.. trying to make myself to work.. n i guess i will just do my work now. yeah. just do it. nike spirit. yup. tata.

will write something much happier next time...