if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

wish i was busy

yesterday i decided to give nie a try. who knows, i might not even get it.. just like the radiology ehz? haha.. anyway, i got help from my fypj friend. cailing. she is one helpful person. though we seldom talk.. but yeah. she is helpful n nice. despite being busy with her project, she still took time to answer my questions. n thus, i decided. just give it a shot man. haha..

hmm... wish i was busy. not that i am not busy currently.. but i wish i was busy with something with more purpose. like what peng siong always says.. he felt he is wasting his life. which i finally do agree with him. because, i felt like i am not fully making use of my time. hmm.. should i say, spending my life doing nothing interesting or beneficial to myself or whoever.... like some zombie... Zzzz...

know that i should not regret of what happened in the past. like wrong decision making. wrong mindset etc.. but yup. i ain't regretting or what. just people tends to grow up n will somehow or rather think back and realise. what are the things that is handled wrongly. why things turns out this way. well.. just wanted to realise, learn and get over it. just want to master the "art" of taking it easy n that the regret feeling won't be that strong.. n that i am happie a mistake is made so that i can learn from it. that's all.. yup.

sorta think back of the times i first step into poly.. well... i think i enjoyed poly very much. because of the friends. the only flaw is that i wasn't studying happily. remembered during year 1, i will play bball with the guys. till rather late. 9plus. li hui also will join us. we 2 will be the only gal who will play. thankz her for being there. else i feel funny.. haha.. ben was very close to my class too. n he had to pull me out to study else my eyes will just be stuck at the computer playing "counterstrike" haha.. year 2.. i was closer to celeste, peifeng n li hui.. we ton at lihui's house. have lotsa fun. but of course, there's also many arguments.. but yup.. still i really miss those days. n felt very sorry for angering them.. peng siong was like a elder brother, bringing me to school coz i just shifted to my current home.. 3rd year. went to ben's class.. felt very glad.. coz his classmates are all very nice n treated me well.. melissa, seetwei, sean, derrick, crystal etc... yup. it was a new experience in a new class too... =) but it was mdm tay that helped me the most in getting me into the class.. n lastly, not forgetting, i gotta know a silly guy.. haha.. =p

geez.. there's just so much of memories.. n dunno why suddenly everything just appear in my head. now i really really dun feel like doing work.. haha..