if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Monday, February 13, 2006

today is just a tired day

I am so so sleepy now. counting down to 6.30.. even my key board also looks blur... now that i read back what i have type till the word "blur"... i realise that i had indeed "fallen asleep". lately been very bad...it is so tough to stay awake. maybe because what i am doing at work is so so tough.. haix... :( and i haven't decided what i wanna study. dun get what's the problem. first is the number of years of effort that i have to put in. then is the amount of money i or should i say my mum have to spend for my course. this is something rather disturbing because i actually have to rely on my mum to pay for me when i am suppose to have a certain amount of money and not relying on her. so so guilty... the worst is, this year is 21. 21,freedom + independent. and yet.... :( and is all because i didnt think carefully last time. not to say i wasted 3 years. but well, this is just human yeah. regret blah blah blah. haix. anyway, hope i dun drag another year.

hmmm..woke up quite early today..not a very good way to start the day. he went for holiday. sometimes is just so ironic... just looking at him, i felt i was so stupid. even my brother know wat's going on. geez... so sad for my brother. such stupid sister he has. thank goodness he is so so much smarter. until outsiders will question are we really siblings.. haha...

tml will be V-day. i asked my brother out to get something for my mum's birthday. but he xian qi me orhz.. haha.. sobx sobx. he say he rather stay at home. what kinda brother is he. and to think i got scolded by my mum for buying him so so many things... :( but still, can't help it.. keke...

now in the office.. so so bored.. just wanna go home and watch my vcd... been so long since i had some time to watch vcd.. even my mum didnt nag at me when i watch for a couple of hours. which she usually will. keke..

was just thinking why i suddenly stop updating my blog.. guess is just no time and nothing much to write. maybe just dunno how to express it out in words. haha..