if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Monday, February 20, 2006

Lesson learnt

is 10am..currently in the office. when i was walking to the office, i notice the sky was a lil greyish.. no sun. slightly windy. though it seems like a gloomy weather, but actually it is a very nice weather.. n somehow, i just felt better. nt feeling that tired..

one of my childhood fren just celebrated her 21st birthday. i remembered when we were young, she is a very quiet person.. i alwayz think that she is so quiet that she only have a few good friends. but just read her blog n i saw that she actually changed. evolved into someone that is not like what i had alwayz "thought" but very happie for her.. she seems like she really had a great time.. shu hui, happie 21st birthday orhz. =) melissa had arrived safely in brisbane. so glad for her coz she will be embarking in a wat i called new life... being in an unfamiliar country. being independent.. and i am sure she will definitely do well there.. met her on msn there n i told her that if i were her, i would have cried when i first step there. but she said, how old already.. have to learn to be independent.. gee.. i am so proud of her. thus i will jiayou jiayou! =]

yesterday night i tried to register for the radiology.. but... i wasn't able to submit my application successfully.. yup.. because the criteria was A-level.. was feeling dejected then.. felt like everything is blured once again.. even my brother and my mum was beginning to feel worried for my future.. but its OK! even though i am not able to send my application over, but at least i can try asking the person in charge of radiology, to see whether i really do not qualify for that course. if i dun.. then too bad right. will have to seek another way out. yup. though i felt sad then. but i haven't decided to give up yet. so give me credit okie. haha...

well...actually darius dun agree with me going radiology.. coz he say health hazard. n will be boring.. everyday face the machines. so he kept giving me a checklist as to whether i really want such a course.. he has also tried to persuade me to go into the business field like banking and finance.. well.. i will just keep all my options open still.. maybe going into nie will also be one of my options.. but well.. after the radiology thinging, i decided not to think too much first. take one at a time. when i eventually can't get into any course, i suppose is juz destiny or fate n that i have to go through wat's more suitable n not interest... till then, i wun give up..

so cs, dun fear or upset for me or get urself upset..just guide, remind n help me jiayou can le.. keke.. =)