if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Dilemma still

i am currently in the office now. risking getting caught.but just relax a lil lil while.. =P am listening to the radio and trying to focus on my work. just heard an important news. the dj warned the ppl there's a dangerous guy out there with a gun. he just killed a 40yr old chinese guy tis morning i think.. wasnt concentrating on what she says.geez.. i am really bored. hmmm.. think frustrated is the word.. though i sorta decided to register for the radiology back at nyp. and even though results aint out yet. but somehow something is just bugging me non-stop. but i dunno what izzit. Zzzz.... was looking at my friendster this morning. one of my fren whom i got to know during a new zealand trip many years back just came back from a holiday in japan. so good... haha. she and her family went to kyoto, disneyland etc.. the best thing is her whole family went with them. even the grandparents. still remembered her parents. very nice ppl. n seeing how her lil brother had grown up make me feel like time pass so so fast.. wish i was back to the time where everything can start all over again. geez.. do i sound like i feel sad for my life now and regret for route i choose that time? well, i tink to be exact, i sorta regret for how i behaved last time. not flexible enough. once the road is being blocked i just felt is the end of the world.. yup.. silly ehz? haha.. but somehow, i feel like i still had not learned my lesson. but sometimes is very difficult to make decisions. is forgoing an unattainable or a prospect that does not have a clear future means being flexible? so so complicated to understand... hmmm.. okok.. stop here for the time being.. haha.. coz like getting very dishearted about it.

well, yesterday was Valentine's Day.. hmmm.. not bad.. though have to work in the day... haha.. anyway, yesterday he had nite's out. so he took the time to come find me. bought the XXL chicken... keke... later going out with my brother.... at last my brother agrees to go out with me... haha... but i also because we have to look for our mum's birthday present. and i'm sure is coz he thinks he got more taste than me.. haha.. kidding.. is i think he got more taste. so he choose present. i pay. haha... hmmm... how come i can write so much sad stuffs but come to happy events like so short?? maybe update again later if i felt better.. tata!!

back... haha.. went out for dinner with my brother. keke...happie happie. got my mum a pair of earrings for her upcoming dinner and dance.. hehe... i think the best part is going out with my brother and having dinner with him bah... haha.. hmm... just now my mum was talking to me abt the course again.. last time, 3years back she asked me to take up early child.. but i was in a daze after getting my o-level results thus everything just dun get in... well... is complicated.. but now i think i can only pray either to get into radio or uni or choose sumthing else that is more attainable or lastly. suffer the cost of psychology... haha..