if the end of love is this hard. i would never love again. never again.

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Mother's Day

today is mother's day. went to work in the morning and came home in the afternoon... [lame...] anywayz, wanted to treat my mum a good dinner but because she is eating vegetarian today therefore we have to postpone. furthermore, i kept thinking that mother's day will be next sunday. so i did not get any gifts. but i will definately get her sumthing this week if i got the chance to go shopping. anywayz, bought dinner back because it was kinda late when my bro reach home and i am lazy to go out for dinner because there will be so many people in the streets and all the resturants will be fully booked. so in the end i went to get dinner and a cake. but all 3 of us were too tired and too full to eat the cake so we decided to leave it for tml's breakfast. just wanna say "Sorry Mummy, didnt gave ya a wonderful mother's day. but still hope u enjoyed it. =) "
everything seems alright until a friend of mine keep asking me how are both of us. i know all of them are concern. but once they mention the prob, i felt frustrated. i "hao bu rong yi" try to tell myself not to avoid and that i have finally convince myself to just carry on with things and only settle the prob when it happens and not to think too much like wat will happen or wat are the problems that will occur and here comes them mentioning it. arghz! haiz. maybe i had been avoiding the matter since chalet that time. but on the other hand convincing myself that i could actually not think so much. now i am beginning to think abt it. to think abt which way to approach him so as not to let him be hurt or to minimise the amount of hurt he might face. how i wish he never met me. he was unlucky to. i know it is wrong... but i think i am slowly beginning to be careful once again. the old me has return once again. i am sorry.